EEEEEE DEREK ASKED ME OUT LAST NIGHT SO NOW IM DEREKS GF! lol sorry im just excited.. even tho no one even uses livejournal ne more, lol, now everyone uses myspace but w/e.... im sort of sad bc i think ryans upset...andi know lisa hates me... but w/e i heart derek and im going over his house today:) awh i like so happy lol... good lord.. theres ( Read more... )

last night derek wanted to be with lisa...and was really depressed.... lol yeahhh but last night was awosme.... got sooo much cndy and i gave it all to brian lol ( Read more... )

lol i literaly dunno where i would be in life with out cosmo magizine... lol it literaly like is the only reason n ppl like me lol... hahahaha yeah sorry this is random ( Read more... )

*sigh* i pretty much give up on this whole situation.. i like dont even care nemore.. ill just miss his smiles.. thats all.. ugh... im done....... im just getting depressed and im 17.... i dont want to have nething else to worry about at this point ( Read more... )

im in a really annoyed mood... i woke up and went to derek mike and gregs soccer game.... it was fun then i went to concord and hung out with mike...which sucked for reasons im not gunna get into.... ugh im so stressed out about the ryan /derek situation... derek is so fucking indesive it sucks.... why am i even still waiting for him? he should ( Read more... )

i really miss elena.. for a while i was sort of hostile bc she didnt talk to me ne more.. but i mean she has her reasons and i thinkwe r better off not being friends for right now..... i mean i dont really care...i just miss her... we did have alot of fun times together....and she was the only person who like i could do crazy stuff with and not ( Read more... )

lol i wish derek was gay bc sometimes we feel so close its more like best friends.. so i like wanna tell him everything but i cant bc hes not a girl so it will be akward... yarrr... hahaha sorry this is so random al i dois talk about derek ugh i need a new subject....hmmmm....i cant think of nething else ( Read more... )

ooo boy..... i like ryan lol its so bad i know.. but hes like UBER sweet to me... but i think me and derek r gunna go out tho... so i like dunno what i should do.. i should like stop hitting on \ryan tho bc if and when me and beebee go out ... ryan is gunna be sad and hes like one of my best firneds so like i dont wanana have ne akwardness with ( Read more... )

wow.. i havnt updated in so long. The last time i updated was like in agust when i was like obsessed with devin lol ( Read more... )

is it normal to love someone who hurts you ( Read more... )