How many keys are on your keychain?: 4 ( Read more... )

"It's like a broken vow or an unfulfilled promise in the sky, a falling star almost. A falling star and you shrug it off, never realizing that a whole world has ended at that moment. A hundred million dreams, maybe, and you watch it fall and make an asinine wish, that's all the good it does a star to fall. It gives some kid a chance to wish for a

Haven't really had much to say lately. Just wrestling with the same guilt issues that I have been for a while. Mostly just a revolving door on anger, frustration, and lack of forgiveness. Mostly just need a hug. I hope everyone is having a good week.

"Sometimes that difference between your best friend and your worst enemy is only a matter of opportunity."

Note: I am not actually feeling very depressed or trying to say anything with this particular quote, which I recognize is a break from the norm, so please don't read into this and think I am lashing out at anyone, I just was re-watching Scrubs episodes and this quote made me smile ( Read more... )

I am feeling better. Getting a hug seems to do that for me. Went home for a few hours yesterday for my Grandpas birthday and just to visit. It was a nice visit and my dad actually really made me feel better, unlike my mom. I have been considering getting a basic factory job, one that won't create the same stress that drives me insane and one ( Read more... )

I have been eating on myself lately. I think I am now petrified of my own sexuality. Doesn't make me less needy, but it makes me resent it. Sins of the past haunt the present. Like it has gotten to the point of physically making my body messed up again. Not breaking out in a rash or anything this time, but still something is not quite right. ( Read more... )

And you don't seem to understand ( Read more... )

I find myself repeating the same cycle far too often. I enjoy time out with friends, feel better, and then find myself alone again at 3:30 AM, and then i do something stupid like put music on that I know will only exacerbate my lonely feelings. Portions for Foxes by Rilo Kiley this time. I need to call my parents tomorrow, I dont know what about ( Read more... )

My mood had been much better for a while. But tonight, I have taken a dive. I think at least in part because I feel like I have burned a bridge and that isn't something I like to do. Also I hurt a friend of mine in Springfield as well recently, and seeing the pain in his eyes nearly had me in tears, I have to say. Amanda gave me the advice that ( Read more... )