not into scat, but...
it seems like i keep getting shit on. lets review, shall we?
-financial aid doens't have record of my application for this year, neither do I (shoulda made copies). i had to reaaply for financial aid last week.
-now i'm not eligble for calgrants cause i made too much money working for the government in 2004. grats on my new unsubsidised loans which wont cover shit, and accrue interest while i'm in school and/or deferment. time to look into a second job.
-mother has a heart attack.
-coincidentally one of her friends of 40 years dies on the same day after a long battle of lieukemia.
-also moms brother in law suffered from a heart attack the night before hers, in guadalajara.
-mother has open heart surgery
-brother starts having panic attacks because of my mom's situation.
-money is starting to be a huge issue with me, and with trying to plan for my mothers rehabilitation and home care.
-my brakes are going on my car, and i need to get a consultation cause i'm afraid it might be the roaters.
-my sister-in-law has shingles.
to quote my father, "i better not stand in one place too long, the cat will come and pee on me." these are very stressfull times for me and no matter my spirits it seems like the momenti just leave my mind unoccupied i start getting upset, and start crying either from fear, stress or just plain old freaked-out-ness.
the plus side is that i am taking care of bizness right now, and so are my siblings. thank god my parents were horn-dogs, having all seven of us here has been very comforting, although living with my brothers two daughters (both under 5) for a week has been a huge challenge on my part. i promised my mother i wouldn't freak out on him. i promised i'd have patience.
patience.
faith.
strength.
empathy.
objectivity.
love
-financial aid doens't have record of my application for this year, neither do I (shoulda made copies). i had to reaaply for financial aid last week.
-now i'm not eligble for calgrants cause i made too much money working for the government in 2004. grats on my new unsubsidised loans which wont cover shit, and accrue interest while i'm in school and/or deferment. time to look into a second job.
-mother has a heart attack.
-coincidentally one of her friends of 40 years dies on the same day after a long battle of lieukemia.
-also moms brother in law suffered from a heart attack the night before hers, in guadalajara.
-mother has open heart surgery
-brother starts having panic attacks because of my mom's situation.
-money is starting to be a huge issue with me, and with trying to plan for my mothers rehabilitation and home care.
-my brakes are going on my car, and i need to get a consultation cause i'm afraid it might be the roaters.
-my sister-in-law has shingles.
to quote my father, "i better not stand in one place too long, the cat will come and pee on me." these are very stressfull times for me and no matter my spirits it seems like the momenti just leave my mind unoccupied i start getting upset, and start crying either from fear, stress or just plain old freaked-out-ness.
the plus side is that i am taking care of bizness right now, and so are my siblings. thank god my parents were horn-dogs, having all seven of us here has been very comforting, although living with my brothers two daughters (both under 5) for a week has been a huge challenge on my part. i promised my mother i wouldn't freak out on him. i promised i'd have patience.
patience.
faith.
strength.
empathy.
objectivity.
love