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Well here i am again, another month another entry. I am officially a lil druggie, i hate alcohol now, and i have no car (totaled because i did too many drugs one weekend). yet through all of this, i am finally happy, i mean not necessarily jumping for joy but i feel good about my life.
I'm moderating my drug usage. I roll every few weeks, i smoke almost daily, pain pills, xany's, i'll do anything i can get my hands on (except i won't snort anything, and i don't do needles), and yet, i work 8 - 5 daily, i keep my apartment spic and span, i'm about to start a second Job and i still attend church regularly.
WTF? i know it's unreal...
What i don't do anymore is drink. Therefore i don't make myself look like a fool in public anymore (unless i'm rolling balls in which case i'm at home or inside). I have the occasional drink but i think i'm gonna stick to beer, liquor just makes me sick tooo quick.
I'm finally getting along with my family. Me and my brothers are finally getting along (most of the time). Me and my mom have finally come to an understanding, she won't yell at me just so long as i lie to her about what i do at night... Me and my dad, we're definitely getting better, but him and my brother both have a stubborn heart when it comes to forgiveness, but i'm winning him over.
I can proudly say i have never been more happy with the friends that i have (of course that doesn't mean i'm limiting myself to them). In the past few months, my "pals" have bailed me out of jail, made sure i didn't o/d, got me laid, and i've just gotten closer than i ever thought i'd get to anyone. I know it's just a matter of i have finally been friends with someone long enough to get this close but i can still think it's cool...
so yeah anyone who still reads this and wants to hang out,
call me: 404 213 3673