Pardon my pondering.
Its really late. Pardon my pondering just thinking out loud after i had a conversation I had earlier. Ignore if u wish.
I like my mental health now. I have had maybe one total panic attack since coming to my dorm this year. (and that was when I went to NY which is understandable).
I can handle classes. I have little to no worries. but i also havent been home in almost more than a month.
When I was home during the summer I had probrably four or five large several day style panic attacks. They were all based around trying to juggle too many responsiblities at once. WORK/Home/MOM/ fighting with molli/planet rob/dealing with working every fucking day.. being at home everyfucking day! Work was pretty unavoidable. but there was a LOT of shit going on at home that i really didnt have to deal with. nothing major, but i was pretty much my mother's only source of "advice" she could find. I think that actually put alot more pressure on me then my anxiety would let me handle. I Worried ALOT about offending her. and doing things right. I had no place to myself. and still have no place to myself there. Im wondering what I should do over the summer. Hell over winter break. I really dont think that I can discuss whats going on in our house with her anymore. It makes me anxious and upset. I get REALLY mad when she asks me for advice. and I feel like there is a HUGE amount of responsibilty there that isnt mine. I should tell them. Or maybe discuss it with dad?
I like my mental health now. I have had maybe one total panic attack since coming to my dorm this year. (and that was when I went to NY which is understandable).
I can handle classes. I have little to no worries. but i also havent been home in almost more than a month.
When I was home during the summer I had probrably four or five large several day style panic attacks. They were all based around trying to juggle too many responsiblities at once. WORK/Home/MOM/ fighting with molli/planet rob/dealing with working every fucking day.. being at home everyfucking day! Work was pretty unavoidable. but there was a LOT of shit going on at home that i really didnt have to deal with. nothing major, but i was pretty much my mother's only source of "advice" she could find. I think that actually put alot more pressure on me then my anxiety would let me handle. I Worried ALOT about offending her. and doing things right. I had no place to myself. and still have no place to myself there. Im wondering what I should do over the summer. Hell over winter break. I really dont think that I can discuss whats going on in our house with her anymore. It makes me anxious and upset. I get REALLY mad when she asks me for advice. and I feel like there is a HUGE amount of responsibilty there that isnt mine. I should tell them. Or maybe discuss it with dad?