it's funny ho there's a million things that can run through your head at one time yet i can't think of a single thing to put down here ( Read more... )

last entry ( Read more... )

me and my dad had it out hardcore today, i said a lot to him that i could never say before... granted it was over the phone it was still something. He denied everything and tried to make me look crazy. No surprise there. My mom was able to call him on a bunch of things, we both got a lot off our chests. I cried a lot after the conversation and my ( Read more... )

in writing the last entry about my hospitalization i forgot to put the main reason i wrote it. When i got home, walkng in the door, not even 5 minutes since getting home and out of the psych ward... i was engaged in having to talk about ( Read more... )

I miss getting drunk with calhoun and that crew, lochlyn chelsea katy sean jamie and lauren etc. i miss the sleep overs... i miss knowing that i always had somewhere to go and people to play with.

and still through it all

they're there for me

thanx

I attempted suicide last thursday morning. I left notes, got in my car and drove away figuring that my step-dad, since it was raining, would come home early. I knew i would need time. I took a bottle of tylenol pm, 24 tablets and then took it with vodka chased with beer. When finished i felt like throwing up but i figured it was a mental thing so i ( Read more... )

i just realized how good this would have been to have for my month in college.... my entries would have incoherent but interesting : )

I saw Anja, Allison, Alex, and Chrissy last night. It was awesome. I haven't seen any of them in awhile... especially Alex and Chrissy. We hung around Acme and Barnes and Noble.. and after chrissy and alex left the rest of us just drove around a little and talked. It was good. Afterwards around like 2 in the morning, i hung out with John and slept ( Read more... )

And so since dropping out of Stockton and then entering into a cosmotology school, Empire, i'm on my way to becomin' a productive part of society. Wee.

"But because things change ( Read more... )