No one talks to me or emails me these days....and ive somehow lost my friends page....stuff is very sucky right now.

if you love me you should let me know.

Work is still sucky. At least i worked a full day today. Hopefully for the rest of the week too, i cant really afford another 20 hour week. It will be enough to pay my rent and thats about it. Argh!!! So sucky! Responsibility who needs it ( Read more... )

Christmas is turning out to be really disappointing this year. Ive been sick with a cold since friday, resulting in little to no sleep, got my arm burnt from using undiluted detol (im so dam attractive i look like a junkie gone wrong), been worrying about people close to me, worrying about the future of my relationship with other people, and today ( Read more... )

It always happens. Again and again. The same thing. I care, they dont, i give, they dont, i hand a piece of my heart, they squish it to the ground ( Read more... )

Mondays suck. Work was slightly crap, without email i am so bored and cant talk to anyone ITS SO GAY!!!!! And katy wasnt in today so i could dump my emotional crap on her lol... left me feeling lonelier than usual. Though i know we are all alone in life anyways. I dont know where we get the notion that being in a relationship or having friends or ( Read more... )

Another week ends. A lot of things still havent changed in my mind or in my heart but im so confused by what is real and what is in my head. Maybe i should start writing stories or songs or something to drain my imagination away. Its funny how things can be going so well and then the next time you stop and think about how things are going, you ( Read more... )

Theres something about having your own place....and being able to cry on your stairs alone....

Well i did it. I got my licence! Its scary and exciting at the same time.

Now if i just keep on losing weight (ive lost 5 kgs) then i will have accomplished everything i set out to this year. I think i am proud of myself.

So im going to make an effort to make a proper entry. Lets start with my weekend ( Read more... )