I fail to understand why we are pushed to be tougher and stronger than the guy next to us. Why are we drivin to intimidate the guy passing you on the sidewalk. I think it takes a certain level of maturaty to understand that we are all people, we all love and want to be loved. Why fight, why hate, when the alternative seems so much more free? What ( Read more... )

I need to find some sort of justification for the things I've been feeling. I can't even know if I'm awake or dreaming anymore. I've found myself struggling to breathe and my heart seems to beat out of my chest sometimes. Its probably just stress building up, but there's nothing I can do about that, tell my fuckin professors! I'm kinda stuck. Also ( Read more... )

Why are people flipping out at me? What did I do to deserve this much hate? I try so hard to make sure I am nice to everyone I know, how can I be so wrong? The worst thing in the world to me is causing someone to hate. I hate hate. I just wish everyone could love eachother and enjoy everyone elses presence. So many people have too much hate, it ( Read more... )

the urge to write is there but the words arent

Every day is a venture into my own mind, every day I realize what is wrong with me yet I feel helpless to come to a solution. After realizing that I am not who I want to be, how do I change? aren't I who I am? aren't I who I'm gonna be? So should I change myself or will I just be this confused ball of emotion? I dont want that, I want to be ( Read more... )

A billion people died on the news tonight ( Read more... )

In a single instant when 2 sets of eyes meet in the busyness of the day, two worlds collide with promising looks in their eyes. Can one judge or forsee a lifetime of love within this single instant? Is she playing games this early on? Isn't the object to just find somebody and share all your love with them, why play games? why stray from intention ( Read more... )

Jewmond Galex and Myself went to keene today to rock the bookstore, obviously came up with a new way to say "Damn that bitch is hot" without affending anybody.... pfffffttt or something similar to that. This up and coming year will be great indeed... Jewmond is right down the hall... Alex and Tim have a pool table in their building, and I of ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my last day of work and with that in mind I should think it would be a happy day. I guess it was the culmination of all kinds of factors that lead me to an embarrassing state of affiars. After the day I had on Thursday I assumed that Friday would have to be better. It also didnt help that I went up to Hampton to see Mary thursday ( Read more... )

When the incontrovertible happens there is no way to take back unforeseen consequences in which we all will see. In an instant you’re gone without even recognition of where you’ve been/will go. Try to understand the mind of the soulful, if something in the world occurs in an instant, it could take his whole life to truly understand what just ( Read more... )