(I) scrawled out on my arm something I had to say.
I didn't want to forget, the pen le(f)t it's mark but the next m(o)rning it had faded away.
I carved a phrase so close to my heart it bled and hurt for a day.
Left (n)ow is a scar that's fading away.
Like everything else I need to say, Everything I fee(l) these days fades away. Slowly ( Read more... )

The Sky...
The Sky took a bite out of my hand...
Puzzled I don't understand...
My flesh invisible...
The favor, unreturnable...
The reason, undiscernable...
The wound open and fresh
Yet not a drop of blood...
It happened as I stood in the mud
Gently sinking into the earth...
Watching the sunset...
Silently praying to my God:
Regret.

It's cold and slick and solid and I can see a distorted reflection of me in its barrel, chamber and hammer. Such a small and dangerous life altering cylinder of metal slides in it's casing, copper with a silver tip. The clicks, the metallic snap as things fall into place. Pull back the hammer calculating the outcome, ridding myself of second ( Read more... )

I just had a moment today as I was driving alone listening to some music. It came to me so clearly, a HYPOTHESIS 1 a : an assumption or concession made for the sake of argument b : an interpretation of a practical situation or condition taken as the ground for action ( Read more... )

Two new people hate me for no real reason. Disheartening news on top of that. This year keeps getting better and better!:::rubbers hands together in anticipation:::woohoo! can't wait to see what's next.

kgchasez6: so do you think you could meet us sometime at the belvidere library ( Read more... )

Sunday was completely boring, just utterly dull and mundane and lifeless. Due to it's lack of, well, anything, I went to bed at 10:30 P.M. Ten thirty pee emm! Not even when I was in elementary school did I go to bed at such an early hour. This is what it must feel like to be Mormon? I should just move my ass out to Utah and find me some wives. It ( Read more... )

Saturday. I was awaken by a phone call from my mother early in the morning. Apperantly the sack of manure that's evicting me called the cops to file a report. I dress and call Rick for a ride. At my studio, my parents are there along with Rick and myself. No cop, just the Dick head. There was some new writing on my walls.Such as 'YOU SUCK' ' ( Read more... )

I woke up Friday afternoon around 5....maybe a little closer to six. I went to my studio to go and back up anything small to bring home. I also swept and cleaned the entire thing. I didn't really do much else except lounge around on my sofa taking in the experience of just being there for pretty much the last time, reminiscing on the many many good ( Read more... )

Thursday was a most spontaneous night. Very unpredictable and spontaneous. Lupey came over to my studio at 1:30 in the afternoon to watch the home movies I'd promised to show her. Awe man, totally embarrassing to watch my young self make an ass out of...um.....myself. I could barely watch, the embarrassment made my stomach writhe. Ok, I exaggerate ( Read more... )