in which i talk about everything that comes into my brain
I had the surgery and my goodness, does it hurt. Of course I didn't feel any pain the entire time my mouth was being mutilated (I had two huge syringes of anesthesia, and the last shot was straight to the bone) but once the anesthesia wore off, the pain was just so unbearable that I cried the entire way back home, and even more when I was under my covers and listening to Kaze XD I've been in a noodle and rice porridge diet now and man, I miss being able to eat proper meals. My parents bought me cake earlier, as I requested but I couldn't finish the slices I cut up for myself because opening and closing my mouth for a long period of time makes everything hurt. T____T It also hurts to swallow. It hurts when I turn my head. It becomes unbearable when the medicine wears off, just like it does now. I already told the office I'm going to extend my leave for two days because no, I can't go to work like this. And the scariest part is that I still have three more to take out XDDD This will never end lol.
At least now I know how swallowing a mouthful of blood feels (and tastes, ugh) like.
...sorry, that was a bit TMI.
There was a cockroach here earlier, it flew through my open window. If there is one thing in this world that I really cannot stand, it's insects. More so if it were cockroaches. And MORE SO IF THEY FLY. FLYING COCKROACHES ARE SCARY, YOU GUYS. It landed on my pillow and I had no choice but to scramble up and run away. It was scary ;__; Unfortunately for me, my parents weren't in earlier and I had to deal with it on my own; so I grabbed a bottle of alcohol, threw my sheets over it, poured an incredible amount of the alcohol over it and watched it flap around under my sheets until I was able to pick it up. Wrapped inside my comforter of course!
So while I've been resting my murdered jaw, I've been watching D no Arashi like mad. And as it always is with these boys, they can make me feel like a proud mother who've watched my children grow up as respectable adults. They may be 'only' idols to some out there, just a mere "boyband" to the eyes of the world, but they're so much more than that. They worked hard to get to where they are today, just like all hard working humans out here in this world. Watching them in that dusty-looking studio in their DnA years, their young smiles give no indication that they will be performing yearly in Kokuritsu come 2008. It was just them, doing their jobs, a job they had carried since their Mayonaka days AND THEY WERE SO YOUNG. They looked to me as kids that were forced to grow up because of the industry they chose to be a part of, and yet it makes them appreciated the childish things they do, more.
hfjaskhfklash Arashi makes me feel a lot of feelings, yes they do. I wish I can see them soon. I wish that if and when I finally grow out of this fandom, I can look back and would not be embarrassed, but be proud of what this (and them) all have given me to get to where I would be in the future. 5-10 years down the road, will I look at Arashi pictures on the internet and smile at how they've grown old LMAO XDDD
And yes, it still makes me smile and laugh whenever I see chibi Jun because come on. JUN. As a kid. With a smile that takes up half his face. JUN ♥ AND I'M EXCITED FOR 24HR TV. I AM, I AM.
I feel proud and thankful as a fan, and I cherish these boys so much, along with the awesome friends they have given me. Soul soul, right? :)
Akanishi Jin has some guts.
And OMG THAT RYO DRAMA with him starring as himself is going to be hilarious, only because I am a fan LOLOLOLOL. I wonder if any of the staff behind that drama has been keeping tabs on fandom because it really DID sound like a fanfic written. I wish other JE would make cameos. Imagine if Arashi were to make appearances LOL that would be epic.
...it's hurting again, I wonder if I'll be able to go to sleep like this ;___;
EDIT: and my Dad fangirls Adele like how I fangirl Arashi. Well, almost. There was a time he was texting me Adele lyrics while I was at work with his comments of "POOR GIRL /SAD FACE at the ends. He's so adorable XDD
At least now I know how swallowing a mouthful of blood feels (and tastes, ugh) like.
...sorry, that was a bit TMI.
There was a cockroach here earlier, it flew through my open window. If there is one thing in this world that I really cannot stand, it's insects. More so if it were cockroaches. And MORE SO IF THEY FLY. FLYING COCKROACHES ARE SCARY, YOU GUYS. It landed on my pillow and I had no choice but to scramble up and run away. It was scary ;__; Unfortunately for me, my parents weren't in earlier and I had to deal with it on my own; so I grabbed a bottle of alcohol, threw my sheets over it, poured an incredible amount of the alcohol over it and watched it flap around under my sheets until I was able to pick it up. Wrapped inside my comforter of course!
So while I've been resting my murdered jaw, I've been watching D no Arashi like mad. And as it always is with these boys, they can make me feel like a proud mother who've watched my children grow up as respectable adults. They may be 'only' idols to some out there, just a mere "boyband" to the eyes of the world, but they're so much more than that. They worked hard to get to where they are today, just like all hard working humans out here in this world. Watching them in that dusty-looking studio in their DnA years, their young smiles give no indication that they will be performing yearly in Kokuritsu come 2008. It was just them, doing their jobs, a job they had carried since their Mayonaka days AND THEY WERE SO YOUNG. They looked to me as kids that were forced to grow up because of the industry they chose to be a part of, and yet it makes them appreciated the childish things they do, more.
hfjaskhfklash Arashi makes me feel a lot of feelings, yes they do. I wish I can see them soon. I wish that if and when I finally grow out of this fandom, I can look back and would not be embarrassed, but be proud of what this (and them) all have given me to get to where I would be in the future. 5-10 years down the road, will I look at Arashi pictures on the internet and smile at how they've grown old LMAO XDDD
And yes, it still makes me smile and laugh whenever I see chibi Jun because come on. JUN. As a kid. With a smile that takes up half his face. JUN ♥ AND I'M EXCITED FOR 24HR TV. I AM, I AM.
I feel proud and thankful as a fan, and I cherish these boys so much, along with the awesome friends they have given me. Soul soul, right? :)
Akanishi Jin has some guts.
And OMG THAT RYO DRAMA with him starring as himself is going to be hilarious, only because I am a fan LOLOLOLOL. I wonder if any of the staff behind that drama has been keeping tabs on fandom because it really DID sound like a fanfic written. I wish other JE would make cameos. Imagine if Arashi were to make appearances LOL that would be epic.
...it's hurting again, I wonder if I'll be able to go to sleep like this ;___;
EDIT: and my Dad fangirls Adele like how I fangirl Arashi. Well, almost. There was a time he was texting me Adele lyrics while I was at work with his comments of "POOR GIRL /SAD FACE at the ends. He's so adorable XDD