why is it that the deeper i fall the more miserable i get? i love him so much and it's just turned me into a fucking fag. i cry all the time and i hate it. i hate myself. he says he loves me but he never shows it. it's all just words but no commitment. i just feel like he's happy to be with me when it's convinient but if he has to make any effort ( Read more... )

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ok haven't updated in a few days. things are great with spence, he was just playing silly buggers and being difficult. but i saw him on thursday and everything's fine. we did the usual shopping thing and didn't fight too much, even though i had a splitting headache. and then i cut his hair and it looks very cool (of course) apart from the side he ( Read more... )

work sucked. was really busy for a wednesday and i got all sweaty and kept hurting myself because i was running around and stuff ( Read more... )

i tried to get too smart with my overrides and got myself in a bit of a muddle. so it's all had to go. bear with me, i should be back to my usual self tomorrow, or maybe wednesday cause i have work tomoz.

shit.

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well i finally sorted my hair (if you could call it sorted) and it looks like this.

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well i had the most fantastic weekend i've had in a long time. friday night spence came over and we got drunk and watched 'the dish' and snuggled and giggled and such. then he went home and i got drunker by myself and watched king of the hill ( Read more... )

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well i got my hair cut finally yesterday. now, i don't want you to think i'm being ungrateful or anything when i say this but........it looked shite. i told him i just wanted lots of layers and for it to be thinner at the back and generally a bit more exciting and he just made me look like a heroin addict that has sold their soul to liza minelli's ( Read more... )