today & yesterday were seriously like the worst days ever. i fucking hate my dad. hes being such a physco lately. i cant take it. i dont remember what happened but we got in a fight & he grabbed me by my hair & got in my face & scream fuck you you fucking bitch, like awesome thing to say to your daughter you fucking asshole. me & my mom want to get ( Read more... )

you cant fucking leave. this is supposed to our summer, our time to shine. since 5th grade this is what weve been waiting for.. both of us having our licenses for the first summer. going to the beach everyday & doing whatever the fuck we want. you cant leave. i keep trying to just forget about it, and saying its not gunna happen. but i know it is. ( Read more... )

so i thought this weekend was gunna suck. i was pretty upset about somethings, so i couldnt sit in my room all night alone or else i would cry myself dry. so i called meg up & we went to barnes & noble & met up with my dad, uncle, & aunt. i got 3 new books, the last thing i need. right now i have 12 new books to read & 4 of megans i want to read. ( Read more... )

well i tryed everything to make my codes work.. i put old old ones in and i put new ones in and nothing it working... what the fuckk and my private journal codes are all fucked up too what the fuck ( Read more... )

something happen to my journal. my layout is all messed up and i didnt even touch it. wtf. what happened?

i just made myself relize so much shit. i guess i knew it all along but when you start saying it to someone else it just hit me and now i cant stop crying. i cant take it anymore. since 9th grade all i ever wanted was a serious relationship and i havent even got close. honestly i would rather go out with someone for like 8months and have them break ( Read more... )

one of my friends who i used to be pretty close with is annoying the hell out of my lately. like pretty much everything they say i just want to punch them in the face. they always think theyre right and that theyre the best. well um youre not, get over it.

anyway.. me & meg are going to long branch this weekend :)

so my car goes in the shop tomorrow for some things and then on thursday im finally getting my headunit in. i cant fucking wait. i need a fucking job so bad. i have half a tank of gas to last me until i get a job and my first check. that sucks. whatever.

so my parents just made me go in the living room watch the news. it had a thing about myspace on it. my mom said tomorrow she wants to see mine just to see the information i have on it. they said theres 7 pedifiles from jackson who are on the FBIs wanted list. like ok i know shit happens, but im not dumb. i know what to tell people and i know what ( Read more... )

im decided im not going to formal or prom unless i have a date & that pretty much means that they have to ask me cause thats the guys job so looks like im not going to formal or prom which is pretty gay :(