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Father's Day
This is the first Father's Day my brother and I get to spend without our father. The happy news is that this is my brother's first Father's Day as a new dad. I haven't been too emotional. A little teary-eyed here and there leading up to this, and writing about it isn't easy, but the worst is this general feeling of being lost. He was our anchor. He ( Read more... ) -
Lethargy
I've been spending a lot of energy bouncing back and forth between responsibilities. Mom has had car trouble, and it's been keeping her in Fairmont for the most part. I try to swing by every day either on my way to or from the office so that she isn't alone all of the time. Between work, mom, and Lauren, I seem to be coming in last these days, and ( Read more... ) -
The Once and Future Blogger
Lots of things happened since last time. I'm now an uncle. Winter was balls cold. Things keep breaking down in Mom's life. Work has been a constant barrage of things that are unimportant and make me feel demeaned ( Read more... ) -
Can't Always Get What You Want
I ordered an item from Amazon. I'm a Prime subscriber, so I get "free" 2 day shipping on a lot of their inventory. The stuff I bought (which I use alot, but is far from necessary) arrived a day late. I find myself a little miffed, and nearly wrote Amazon to tell them about it. As I was writing it, I realized what an ass I was being about it. It ( Read more... ) -
Some Insight From A Fat Person
I'm fat. I am obese. It's taken me a long time to come to terms with those words. I am also a big person. I'm 6' 3", and I wear a 38" sleeve, so I'm broad in quite a few dimensions. I live in a world that doesn't fit me. I'm uncomfortable pretty much everywhere I go. Just tall enough that the words "leg room" don't mean much, and fat enough that ( Read more... ) -
Dealing With Death: Holidays and the New Year
Happy New Year, LJ. We got through Christmas and New Years okay. The saddest thing was that Dad received a new piece for his train set a few days before Christmas. Maybe it was a sign from the universe that all is well and he's still with us. All I know is that life moves on, and it only seems sad and weird that Dad's not here when I stop to think ( Read more... ) -
Update
I'm going to shorten up these entries because I know all too well that the more I expound on what and how things are going on, the less likely it is to see publication ( Read more... ) -
My Dad Died (written 10/21/13)
Wednesday (October 15) was such a good day. Even before I realized how bad of a day Thursday was going to be, Wednesday was an exceptionally good day in a long-standing series of mediocre-to-crappy weeks ( Read more... ) -
Coming Up on Another Birthday
On the 28th I'll be a 31 year old, unmarried, but not single, childless, overweight, renting debtor. I'm not trying to be pessimistic, I'm merely looking to knock a few detracting details off that description, beginning with the last and working my way back to the unmarried and childless bit. I don't fully expect to solve all of those three this ( Read more... ) -
Lauren and I went on vacation last week. I had been burned out at work after running a bit of a fool's errand for the owner, and one of the fringe benefits of working for this company is that if you don't often ask for time off, there isn't any fuss when you want to take a week if there isn't a deadline to meet. I had no idea what I was going to do ( Read more... )