Comments | burndoutstar: Which way's up?

burndoutstar

Which way's up?

Jul 19, 2008 16:03

I feel lost. I have all these things going on in my life right now. I'm about to go through a major transition, and I don't feel like I have any friends to hold my hand along the way. Aaron's great, I love him to death, but he just can't fill the shoes of a 'girlfriend'. I need someone to gossip with, someone to rant about the days trivial shit ( Read more... )

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Hi sweetheart cupcakefairy July 20 2008, 06:14:12 UTC

Woman, I am very excited for you to be coming back here. I'll be at sarah lawrence the next two years and cant wait to have u be a part of my general life again. wtf i feel like me you and ellis etc shouldnt be on opposite coasts or very far at all. you must not sit there thinking i dont want to stay friends or something it is bad thinking. i just suck at keeping in touch in general with people outside my city. even people in my city, such as wythe. my theory is that hes never on AIM. a lot of it has to do with whether they're on AIM/ichat 24/7. haha. but naw i miss you and wish u only good things and call me anytime u want. ima take u out to hear dubstep music you gonna luv it.

Re: Hi sweetheart burndoutstar July 22 2008, 21:45:24 UTC

Thanks for the lovin'. I know we are still buddies, it's just the distance, ya know, and it gets to my head sometimes too. Makes me think off the wall things.

We have to hang out lots when we are on the same coast. At the very least once a month. loves and misses.

ameliairene July 20 2008, 13:52:41 UTC

I know what you mean. I think, unfortunately, it is a distance thing. Like you can be the closest of friends with someone but it still doesn't feel the same when you can't have slumber parties or curl up on a couch with them. I think a lot of the time it's easy to feel like friendships are slipping away, but if you can, once you see the person it feels like there's no distance at all. My suggestion is letters. IMing or calling on the phone just lacks something. Write letters, little ones, short ones, with pictures you draw or a funny clip from a news paper. I felt like I was loosing my best best friend and so I asked her if we could write letters and having something in each other's hand writing really helps. With just little stupid stuff or huge big problems. It all just comes accross much more real and more like the person if it's in a letter. Try it out, it might help you feel closer. And we all love you, even if you are too far away.

burndoutstar July 22 2008, 21:48:09 UTC

I'm glad you understand what I'm going through, and then I feel bad that you do as well. Being far away from all your good buddies sucks. Especially when you don't have any other buddies sufficient buddies to feel your other buddies space. Or something :)

I always want to write to people. I guess I just worry that I would put in the effort to send something awesome and it would suck to not get anything back, ya know? Cause I've had that happen, and it breaks my little heart. :)

loves and misses, hope all is awesome!

stillawake00 July 23 2008, 04:26:13 UTC

oh dude... I`m so glad we still think about each other. The thing is, having internet in Spain was not always guaranteed and then I had neglected livejournal for so long that I almost wasn`t aware of it anymore. I am coming to cali around the 10th of august. I hope you will still be there. If not, I will definitely be on the east coast to shoot the shit when u get here. Remember, not all is lost. I surprisingly met people in spain that only helped me get through the day because they reminded me in some vague way of you. I think thats what happened ever since we met... that we have a very specific demand in relationships and no one is replaceable but we just have to go on looking for the things we love about these people in others and then, the most beautious part of it all... is one day introducing you to these soul-similar people and then feeling like you linked up the circle. I love to make connections that way. I miss you to pieces, do not think for one second I don`t. I really hope I can see you soon-- aaron too, but also I would ( ... )

burndoutstar August 3 2008, 23:18:49 UTC

yayyy! Are you still going to be coming here around the tenth? I will still be out here. We must hang out. Adriana is coming out to visit on the 15th, will you still be out here? We should all hang out if you are. Yay. When I move back to the east coast we will be able to see each other more than too. I'm definitely planning on visiting you at b-town during your last year. funness.

I miss and love you and can't wait to hang out. much loves!