in aug of 2008 Sora broke out in a rash that started on her feet, then hands then spread in small spots all over her torso. My partner woke up a week later coughing up blood. We started the process of cleaning and trying to get fresh air into our basement living space. We found mold in between the books in Soras room, mold under out bed, along the ( Read more... )

i have had a new edge of motivation that has been a creeping wave in me ( Read more... )

a month ago today i found out Laura died ( Read more... )

im going to write this giving myself the liberty to actually believe it, and let it be mine for a minute ( Read more... )

Mary and Txu txo left on Tuesday (Nov. 14 , 2006) your dad and I drove home from Burlington after eating indian food to try to "start" labor and talked about having no doula, but how maybe we just needed everyone to leave. At that point I thought I was never actually going to get to hold you. The next day (Wed. 11/15/06) we woke up, I walked all ( Read more... )

sora was born, happy and healthy and 2 weeks late . she entered this world on her bedroom floor after 18 hours of labor and 36 minutes of pushing. i can honestly say it was the most amazing and beautiful experience of my life.

life is really different, and being a mom is really hard.

my due date is in alittle over a week, but i could go any day now.
i have been having contractions on and off for about a day now.
the girls came up for the weekend, and im sick as a dog. thom too.
off to the midwife, this could be the last appointment!

37 1/2 weeks.
baby comes soon.

house is almost done/in shambles/never looked more like a house.

im tired.

i cant sleep ( Read more... )

i think im almost 7 months pregnant but at this point i have lost track, i know the baby is there now so i dont need the count to make it real anymore. i enjoy laying on my back and watching my stomach move from side to side. for a long time i have wondered if i had real feelings.... and being pregnant makes me realize how real everything is ( Read more... )