almost a year has passed...

[buscandome]

and i am back where i started:

faced with a choice i am not willing to make.
so most of the time half my head is elsewhere, no matter what i am doing

someone called me a workaholic once.
maybe.

however,
it's my best facet. i can control most everything. and even if i lose that control... i have it back almost immediately.
why wouldn't i live in

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@almost a year has passed...

[iwantt0change]

i'm careful to put my input on some things but this is something that means a lot to me

being a workaholic drowns out the stress and blinds you from the tough decisions that stand between you and where you could be truly happy...

you have a heart gives off warmth that many will never be lucky enough to feel from someone else.. even in their entire life. share it with those that mean most to you mar G.

and that work ethic. it deserves to be in a place that rewards you more.

[buscandome]

guess what Kodie Lee? i care about YOU. thank you for caring about me. i am not used to that either. i will consider everything you've said, if you continue to take care of yourself and let some people in. :)

ehh

[iwantt0change]

it's difficult to let others in as they usually have no idea what i deal with everyday mentally. the last time i let the closest person in my life (my roommate) know what i deal with... he said just have a better mentality its mind over matter blah blah blah.

on top of that there's a string of people i've actually let get super close to me and let them understand me... and they always walk away

sorry for emo h4h4 these are just the reasons i keep everyone at arms length through most of my life

[buscandome]

it's okay. i get it. just know that no matter where you are, i am always here. :)