Why is it we only get inspiration at our more unhappy moments in life?
I haven't painted or drawn anything worth anything in months- when I was happy. Now that I'm feeling down, I suddenly have a huge surge to just draw and draw anything that comes to my mind.

My hands are gritty with charcoal and gesso.

I shouldn't be jealous.

But I am.

Fuck. My. Life.

Just a repeat of my last entry, just place that here.

I wish I could cry. So fucking emo. But I'm never able to cry, even when I wish I could.

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:::When I wrote most of this, I was slightly...well...drunk last night. I fell asleep without finishing or publishing this, woke up and saw that mozilla had crashed and took it as a sign that I shouldn't post this. I went to update my journal again just to say this, and it saved this draft. So I'm going to post it.:::

I wish I didn't care as much as ( Read more... )

Sometimes when I see the insensitivity of some people, and the inconsiderate ways others can be....
Doesn't make me wonder why I don't have friends, but makes me appreciate the people who aren't like that all the more, and thankful that I have friends who aren't like that.

C.

Short, but that's all I really want to talk about right now.

I hate making mistakes.

"Maybe it was more than just the hand of fate
The day you crossed my path and I couldn't see straight
... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Maybe it was more than just a little mistake
When I left you here without a word to say
Except I'll see you again another time and place
And now I suffer, how I suffer"

Meh.

My life is so drastically different than from what it was not even a year ago.
I have changed a lot in at least, my own mind.

I may have been the same when it came to going back to school...but I know now that I am just not ready to get myself a degree and pay out the ass for it for the rest of my life.

I ♥ Parkour. I love it for some reasons that don ( Read more... )

Stop being so beautiful.

But I've always had this thought, and maybe it's because of my own belief that it'll probably happen once in my life, that if I wind up in a Hospital bed, who would be there when I woke up?

Like that whole movie sequence where you have friends surrounding your bed when you some how conveniently wake up while they're all there, or even if they're ( Read more... )

It's not that anything's changed. Though there is an incident where there could be change. But I don't want it ( Read more... )