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It has been long since I've even given thought to this Live Journal. I have since changed, and began to abhor what once I had adored in this "Hobby". But that is much beside the point. I have suppressed thoughts, feelings, and emotions that I know I should not. Thus, I seek to express what I have hidden, but no ear available beside that of my ignorant fellows. (Whom, if I had spoken my thoughts, would have given monkiers of "Fag" or "Noob" to me.) And so, it is thus. Dammit! I crave a vent...
Commonplace, my predicament is. I feel my dignity slip with each letter I type. So, i'll say it plain. She is so beautiful! I only wish I had been a better poet, so that I might capture in words, her ethereal magnificence. It is not just her physical manifestation I so admire, either. Her elegance is offset only by her beatitude. I am blessed by someone, I know not who, to be in company with someone so affectionate, so amicable, so hauntingly parallel to myself. I have thoughts that she could be my soul mate...(It is THESE thoughts that I repress.) Because yes, I am not invincible. When I am cut, I still bleed. And it is very well not my desire to be needlessly cut by the one I had loved so.
I shall keep myself in ignorance of my feelings for her. If it does turn out that I can be loved in return, my heart may venture. But if it is not thus, my romantic hermitage shall continue, ad infinitum. Unless it is absolutely necessary, please refrain from posting. As you can see, It is not feedback I beg of you. Just a open ear.
Thank you.