Existential Crisis

[busysidewalks]

I don't really feel like crying or writing right now; but so many emotions and changes are happening that all I can do is cry and write and worry and talk about my feelings and desire to change so much that it hurts; then realize all the other emotions, and the circles, and the weight, and the balance. Everything just seems so pointless, everything

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[anonymous]

It's crazy, but I think the sadness, the questions, the lonliness, is all necessary at some point. Self reflection is motivation by depression, if that makes any sense. I know how you feel, for sure, there are really no words to express those feelings especially when they all show up at the same time. But I think as observers , maybe we are too busy being fascinated by other people that we don't notice the real significance of our lives. It's crazy that you described yourself as an average domesticated person, because honestly, I see the opposite. Gjabby I talk to people that we went to school with all the time that have kids, and nine to fives, and mini vans, and police academy, and military. I think it's better to be lost. We don't settle. People like us never get domesticated, even after we've made our home. We will always be mad, crazy. This is just a fact. I think no matter where we are in life, we will always burn for something different. Like I said before, at times these feelings are unbearable, but I think their always

[abortedtoolate]

i'm becoming, like, numb, and dull, and introverted.
because i find myself positioned as a similar dot
in a similar placement on
the map of the known and unknown universe.

like every breath i take i take the breath out of one of my dreams,
another small dream of mine is dying.
but i might not really understand, i just feel like i relate.