he's calling me a piece of shit and my mom a fucking cunt
R.E.B OR B.D.

if you can't do it for you, and you can't do it for me, and you can't do it for him, and you can't do it for yourself... then do it for the love of the drugs. if drugs is the only thing you love in this entire world, then do it for them. Quit drugs for the drugs. you might be hurting their feelings by eating mass quantities of them all the time, ( Read more... )

where did you go?
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i wonder
if
i
finally
melted my brain
into the
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i was SO
desperatelycraving ( Read more... )

I am lost.

But I am not alone....

eleven years going strong. going crazy. going strong.

oh, lj. i fucking got lost trying to save someone else, once again. i would die for you and drink your blood and carry your corpse for miles or follow you to the end of the earth or kill for you or clean for you or have your kid or kidnap a kid for you or bone you daily or anything. i would do fucking anything. undying devotion is a very dangerous ( Read more... )

....so i guess, all together, it's happened now 3 or 4 times, including the tackling on the wharf. whatever. it's obvious where this is going. cycles are cycles are cycles an addict is an addict is an addict. people don't change, really, they just adapt, find new ways of hiding their shame, so to speak. today i ate a really awesome breakfast ( Read more... )

good morning, lj. how are you? no doubtedly doing much better than i. unfortunately for me this must be documented so that i do not "get drunk and forget" a.k.a.....live in pure denial. Russel was right, it was just a matter of time before the mental, verbal, and emotional abuse turned into physical. really didn't take long either, i mean wow. what ( Read more... )

i'm going out to be a criminal. i hope i come back in complete form. my stupid "boyfriend" ......today he told me that he is still in love with her, he doesn't love me, he'll never love me, and he wants to leave me for her. but then in the same breath he says he loves me......and........i dont know WHAT THE FUCK TO DO, DUDE.. fuck ( Read more... )

wow! man, livejournal, let me tell you life in a relationship is fantastic!! haha. fights are gay ( Read more... )

oh yeah. I missed OUT....