blahh. i was fine, having a good time, up until now. my roommate christine and i get along really well and last night we hung out with a bunch of girls in our hall. but for some reason today i'm having i-miss-home-panic-attack bellyaches. ugh.

last night was hard
this afternoon was hard
right now i'm fine

talk to me in like 8 hours.

this is the most difficult moment of my life so far. i thought i'd had it bad when i had a falling out with a friend or broke up with a guy but that's only losing one person. the thought of leaving behind everything that has become so comfortable the past 12 or so years is like a giant hole in my stomach. and right now i'm not leaving behind my ( Read more... )

i think watching csi at 3 in the morning will cure my panic attacks.

Yay for my laptop!
now i don't ever have a reason to get out of bed...i just have to figure out a way to get food to transport itself to me...

eh i'll figure that out sooner or later.
i leave in 17 days. there are many things i need to do before then.

so i'm in a triple and one of my roommates names is Tram Tran.
just continue to realize why my life will someday make a great comedy.

and she writes "lol" as "el oh el"
so many problems with that.

I graduated. I went to orientation. I made friends and know what classes i'm taking in the fall. Things are getting so real but not as scary anymore, i'm almost excited actually, which is a nice change of pace.

Home from cali. it was an interesting experience. i'm so glad i have that group of friends though, and that we are able to still get together and have a good time despite the very apparent differences between us. the sad thing about our trip is that i can easily pick out the good times that we have. i shouldn't be able to because the entire thing ( Read more... )

I LEAVE FOR CAlFORNIA IN 6 HOURS!!!
8 best friends
5 days
TONS of illegal substances

california should be preparing itself...

I have less than a week of high school left. this is the weirdest feeling ever. in 8 days i'll be in california with 8 of my best friends. then i get back and i graduate. and then i party and then i have college orientation. when the hell did i get so old? seriously i must've been asleep when it happened (that wouldn't have surprised me). i know i' ( Read more... )