in which i jump over a hurdle

[butter_fly_]

by which i mean, this post is the hurdle. it's difficult for me to write about this, even though many of you already know the story. i've been told that i don't need to feel ashamed or like a failure, but that can be rather difficult when something that was supposed to be just right falls flat on its face

Comments

[queenofolupitoo]

I'm sorry, Adrienne! Good luck with everything! I have confidence that it'll all work out as it should!
Love,
Sarah

[tigermaid]

I'm sorry about the farm. Good luck with finding a job, hopefully at your next job they will appreciate (and utilize) your intellect and talents better.
Love,
Anna

[butter_fly_]

thanks, you guys. i appreciate it.

[dostillevi]

Hi there. I'm Scott, a friend of Ben. I've only been to the Rock once for a week, so I may or may not have met you (it was when Ben and Cami both came back to visit this spring). Either way, I've read a few of your posts and just thought I'd stop in and say hi.

Also, good luck on the job hunt. Jobs are often the most petty and annoying but also essential things we're forced to undertake. I hope you find one for which you don't have to sell too much of your soul.

and yeah, I absolutely hate being micro-managed :)

~Scott

[butter_fly_]

hi scott, don't think i've met you, but hey!

thanks. i'm having a hard time figuring out which jobs i can live with (for example, i'd never under any circumstances work at a fast-food joint, but i might be willing to work at the local ymca), and i think it's made more difficult by my total disbelief in capitalism. for the record, socialism is just as bad in my opinion, but that's a different story. anyway, i agree that most jobs i'm qualified for at this point are petty and annoying. perhaps i need to think of ways to be subversive at even the most petty and annoying jobs, and that would preserve my soul until i can find something better. any suggestions?

my mom is nearly as bad as liz at micro-managing me, but at least it's clear that she does it for entirely different reasons. makes it a little easier to deal with. i hope you're not dealing with any micro-managing, because it's something that i probably wouldn't even wish on my worst enemy.

hah

[dostillevi]

Luckily I'm avoiding it for the most part this summer. I had to sell considerably less of my soul for this job than my last (I worked in a bank last summer!)

As far as capitalism goes, I've gone all around this debate, and what I've realized largely that the basic concept of capitalism is just as good as the basic concept of communism. In both cases, however, the implementation fails. I have a partial solution to the problems of capitalism, but its a little long to post here. Suffice it to say that capitalism can be a power of the people when the people are in charge of their employment instead of being at the mercy of those in management above them.

I'd love to discuss such things further in the future. There are few who care enough to discuss these things and fewer still who have any idea what they are talking about.

~Scott