I love you very much. More than words could possibly tell you. Life has a way of fucking with you when you least expect it, but sometimes all the fucked up things happen for good reasons.....i am sorry you feel like i wasnt there for you, but i am and you know i am.....always.....you have no idea how important you are to me and i how i couldnt live ( Read more... )

I dont mean to be. Im jealous about something that i have absolutly no right to be jealous about.....I HATE THIS!!!You know that saying....."You dont know what you've got until its gone"? Its becoming clearer to me now that im an idiot! And theres nothing i can do. I mean....I guess there is....its all my choices. I wish I could just get my mind ( Read more... )

the kids are ready....makeup is on....they are ready to go.....they are so hyper right now....i hope i can last ( Read more... )

It Halloween.....YAY!!!!! Cheyenne is going to be a princess vampire, which is really cool because usually shes some sort of Barbie princess. This afternoon its making the rounds to the grandparents houses and then trick or treating down the block. it should be fun. its gloomy outside so it will be cold, but i know the kids will have a good time. ( Read more... )

Beauty queen of only eighteen ( Read more... )

i am feeling really good today.....its almost scary. have you ever been so unhappy for so long that when you trully feel happy, you almost dont know what to do??
its like i want to try and be sad or upset or stressed about something, just because being happy is such an unusual feeling.....
BUT im not!!!!! i dont think anything can make me feel bad ( Read more... )

Ever since I found you,
my whole life has changed,
I see beauty and love wherever I turn.

Maybe it is because you love me so much,
that I become stunned thinking of you,
so that wherever I look,
you are there.

*** Thank you for being the stable ground that prevents me from sinking into the nothing that tries to swallow me. You have no idea how ( Read more... )

"One Last Breath ( Read more... )

do you think its possible to just disappear???

And i have absolutly nothing to do......i feel lame.....
I wanted to go out somewhere, but i am thinking that/that is not going to happen.
I think i will go into Tower and get some gas for the Jetta and some smokes. Maybe go rent a movie, come home, take a bath and do nothing....
Anything is better than sitting around feeling sorry for myself.....