Damn Me Stomach Cells!
To those who care enough to know about what's going on with me today:
In my last post I asked whom I should call to not be responsible for anything today? No one volunteered on this one, but I did have to call in. I woke up this morning on the verge of throwing up, and especially since a cooking project was on the lesson plan today, my supervisor decided it was not a good idea for me to be there. (If you need to know why a potential vomit machine is bad around children, I will so cry.) So what do I do? I slept a bit and worked on paperwork. Yes, I stayed home to catch up on paperwork I should be getting paid to do instead of getting paid to do the best - and most important - part of my job, play and educate the children.
Since I am not union nor off probation (friggin' Nov. 19) I do not get any compensation for today. In addition, because I have no health insurance, I have a $150 bill coming to me, on top of the meds that I have to take. In addition, this puts a damper on my upcoming weekend, since I will have to stay at work on Friday until I make my 40 hours. (Sorry Jeff, but if it helps you already know the names - not so much the faces - of whom to blame for this.)
I thank all the many sponsors of my $250+ mental health day, especially 5/3 Bank for use of a checking account and my red-beret-wearing-revolution-starting stomach cells for making the nausea possible. Hope you're happy and hope I can pay all my other bills./sarcasm
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Since moving back into the house, since getting engaged, since being thrusted into a classroom alone sans experience, what happens to me, what is said to me, what is said about me, what is done for me, can affect/effect a lot of people - my own family, Jeff, his family, and my students (whom might I add are at a sensitive age and quite a bit of them arrive to school hungry, cold, abused, and in need of attention and nurturing). Those of you who have been very patient and kind to me since May I truly do appreciate it, as it does have an influence of many of those whom you do not know. I admit I do not and can not thank people enough for this.
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I need to start giving less of a shit about other people's issues (like an adminstration's problem with reports not getting done when they fail to provide me backup so I can make sure reports are done - gotta love the people who only care about you when they want to use you or they have needs from you and refuse to give you the support when you need it most). (Please note that I do not hate my supervisor for this - she knows this problem all to well and wishes the higher-ups would do something about it.)