I think any conversation that follows "we need to talk" isn't going to be good. My first relationship is finished after less than 4 months and after 4 hours of reflection and talking with some great friends, I am surprisingly fine. (besides not being able to not be doing something.. cuz then I just sit there thinking too much ( Read more... )

So.. I know we are all poor college students but I am participating in Relay For Life next weekend and if you would like to make a donation in support please go to my page....

http://www.acsevents.org/relay/jmu/ellisem

I just came to the realization of how much of my parents money I am/will be spending and I am throughly disgusted with my apathy and performance.

jtwilson777 (2:33:50 PM): ok
jtwilson777 (2:34:10 PM): so yeah i wanna see you soon
SeaShell ME44 (2:34:21 PM): yea?
SeaShell ME44 (2:34:24 PM): :-)
jtwilson777 (2:34:26 PM): what yeah i said it

"Thats what life is. Its a series of rooms, and who we get stuck in those rooms with - adds up to what our lives are"

I'm one of the guys.

So here's my plan... or at least what I want to go down

- see a bunch of movies (and by a bunch I mean at least 3)
- see a bunch lovely people
- work... but only as little as possible
- work out... at least 3 times a week
- get my essays written

Its gunna be a busy few weeks.

... and, as predicted, you don't
and i'll pretend it didn't happen
and things will be the way they were
at least until maybe our visions blur together

there were moments tonight that made me think my feelings were reciprocated...
moments i didn't take becaues i fear that if your vision wern't blurred they wouldn't have happened.
And if I had you might not remember them tomorrow...
And if I had there might be regrets...

...and there is still her

My insides twist and turn and scream with a thousand emotions (primarialy excitement) but I just sit here. Afraid to scream out, afraid to make a noise.

I write here to release as much and as little as I possibly can.
What if it doesn't mean anything.