Comments | butterflystar06: i am pathetic

butterflystar06

i am pathetic

Jan 08, 2006 03:33

i did one of the most pathetic things tonight. i cried in the middle of applebees. im not talking about a few tears im talking about out and out bawled. it was majorly pathetic. it was all for a stupid boy. a boy who should mean nothing. this is a boy who said he loved me and wanted me to be a part of his life, but the first chance he got he fucked ( Read more... )

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anonymous January 8 2006, 17:22:34 UTC

Ronna. i love you for how much you care for others. i know that no matter what once you give your heart to someone they will always have a piece of it forever. i am glad that you have decided to let this love go. we talked for hours last night and you made the right choice. i hate seeing you unhappy and this way you are making way for new oppertunities. boys like gallagher would die to have you in their arms. he loves you girl, just think about it.

bethinator

listen... callisto541 January 8 2006, 19:14:21 UTC

What happened between me and her was a hook up. like it was just a quick fuck, and that was that. we are friends, we were drunk, and it happened. it means in no way what-so-ever that i do not care about you. Ronna it's true when i say i care. Just bc i slept with someone, means in no way that i just up and dont care. it means that i was at a party, i was single, and i wasn't waiting, bc i thought we were finished. if i had known! it never would have happened. Really, i called you lastnight, bc Chuck, made me see things different. If i would have died, if that accident was worse? it wouldnt have been the right way to leave you forever. I needed to let you know, that ronna, i do care. And if anything were to happen to you, it would kill me. and i know that if i would feel that way, that badly, how would you feel if it happened to me? So i needed to let you know, i care, and i cherish the memories of us alot. I regretted what happened with kelly. and i have every day since. but with jackie, i dont regret anything. but it ( ... )

Re: listen... butterflystar06 January 9 2006, 08:16:23 UTC

see, the thing of it is is that you dont regret it. to say you care, but can fuck someone else and be proud of it is contradictory. im sorry you dont understand that. there isnt anything you can say to make me believe that maybe you do care THAT much. its not that i think you dont care. its just that i know you dont love. Matt we never slept together, and after i told you it wouldnt be long before you were with someone else and you slept with someone. that took me back. you say it ment nothing and it was just a hook up. sex isnt a little thing. why do you think we never had sex? because its supposed to be special. yeah. im not a virgin, but i regret the times it didnt mean "anything". i mean sure i cared, but i didnt love them. sex is for love, not just entertainment. if you feel you can have sex with just a friend, thats not the type of man i want. i dont want a boy who thinks sex is casual. i dont want casual sex. it should mean SOMETHING. but obviously to you its just a pass time. i wont lie and say i didnt want you back, i did. i ( ... )