mon dieu is that 'my god ( Read more... )

in spain
in valencia
tired
everyone on vacation
do i try and work in spain at a hostel????
what to do?
i hate guys
hate them

why am i so fucking tired....i can barely walk...i want to collapse at every moment! i only have enough energy to do one class each day...im not that bad of a dancer! i am taking class with preljocaj and im pretty good...too bad the director never watches..i thought i was getting skinnier, but i just tried clothes on in a store and i am not.... ( Read more... )

My belly has a first name
it's B E L L Y
my belly has a second name
it's B E L L Y
belly belly belly belly belly belly belly bellyyyy

again, too much gum. it's really difficult not to eat all 40 pieces when they are right there in your pocket

la la la la la ( Read more... )

i just dont know what to do these days. i'm really bored with myself. i hate people. i have no one to talk to. i'm not depressed, but i'd kinda like to be. i wish it were by reason for having no human contact, but its not. my boredom and lonliness has been redirected to obsessive eating habits...which in other words means i am drinking loads ( Read more... )

again, where am i ( Read more... )

AHHHHHH ( Read more... )

i am alive...i almost can't believe it. I got through packing and cleaning with a bottle of amaretto that i finished single-handedly in one day....along with a video i made for my sister consisting of me playing dress up around the apartment in kates crap and the tutus from school. it fully gave me a friend to talk to. i still have one suitcase ( Read more... )

i am so utterly overwhelmed. I don't even know how to express the extent. i honestly just can't comprehend all i am responsible for. kate left at 5 am....she thought she had found a home for frank...well, not really...she thought a shelter would take her.....but i was the one who had to call this morning after she left and they wouldn't take her ( Read more... )