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Woke up at 11:30 today from horrible dreams: Rachel was irrationally awful awful awful to me and then Mom killed herself in the house, leaving boxes of papers with my name scrawled on them on the lawn for me to take care of. Missed FYSEM class on Kant. Have never erroneously missed class like this, but am still far more upset over the dreams ( Read more... )

Checking my email, find ATT top headlines for the day ( Read more... )

5am: naked drunk girl from upstairs knocked on my door and asked me something incomprehensible, and then said she was going to look upstairs, apparently for her own room. Slept and dreamt of incident. Woke up and was unsure whether it was dreamt or real. Discussions in common room concerning awful drunken night confirmed incident ( Read more... )

Venez-ici, s'il vous plait, parce que je t'aime !

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But aggravating overrationalization wasn't the point ( Read more... )

handalighting: I think that...
handalighting: this doesn't just apply to you
handalighting: but acting as though you are only close to people by chance, circumstance and that that in itself makes something less important is an extremely unstable and poor way to approach friendship
handalighting: dammit, though!
handalighting: every fucking event ever ( Read more... )

Maybe a happy memory can't involve people who were only strangers or casual friends. You can't be left alone, in your old age and pain, with memories that include only people who have forgotten you. The people in your happy memories have to be the same people who want to have you in their own happy memories...My neighbor across the street once ( Read more... )

the harder it is to know how to care for it.*

My L&T essay concerning homes is much too optimistic for how I feel, but I keep wishing I could make it a plausible philsophy for right now, wishing I could really believe I was making a home here outside of my cluttered and lovely room. Right now I would much rather be on the living room sofa, ( Read more... )

I didn't expect my honesty to create distance ( Read more... )