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Lately i've been feeling like i have slipped away from people that i used to talk to all the time or that i was close to or more than an acquaintance with. I feel bad. I don't like it and i don't like NOT seeing people i used to see everyday or every other day. and i feel guilty that i hang out with the people i see all the time. i feel like torn in between, if that makes sense. i don't think it does, it feels like i'm stuck. sorta. if that's a way of putting it.
i used to hate this song when it came out. not hate that's not the word...i LOATHED it. but you know it's freaky how i remember this. on the way to the carnival last year it was on KROCK and my brother was driving me so duh, it was loud and we had this girl in the car with us, Kristen Ferro i think. anyway, and i actually had to listen to it. didn't want to but i did.
What's so wierd is how someone quoted this lyric and although i hated this song more than anything, probably for that reason cause i'm a loser like that...
"Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up: These are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is just following your heart and eventually you'll finally get it right. "
and it like made me think..damn that's true. I'm sure when i'm 30 i'll be like yeah this is not as much fun as being 15...well maybe not quite like that but maybe wanting to be 15 again. but now i'm miserable cause there is so much i want to do but i can't cause i'm underage.
that song reminds me of summertime too. just like the vibe i get off of it. probably because it came out in may-june of 2003. just wierd, kinda like this song now.
not like like oohh mmyyy gooodd this is my FAVORITE SONG LIKE TOTALLY..no get a grip.
i have a lot of hopes for this summer.
shows....hangin out. just chillin... i duno i got in depth of this in my journal that i keep. the one i actually write in physically with a pen.. yep so no need to go in depth, ican jus go back and read it; im lookin forward to pam teaching me to skateboard, me and molly jogging, 5 week, shows, making parody videos(pimp my ride) with BkX,warped tour, my birthday (why am i looking forward to it?) ermm...madison's "Sleepless understoplights tour" hopefully it'll come to NY.I look forward to gettin rid of this lovely tin grin i endured for 2 and half years now.. I hope that i don't get my hopes up and when june 18th rolls around i'm like yeeehhawwww this summer will be awesome and than i sit home bored, like a loser, with nothing to do. nahhh meannn. who knows...