Arn't the first few twinges of falling in love grand ( Read more... )

how strange that after all this time I can still feel my stomache drop and the jealous flare of pain.

just what i needed.

*shakes head and finally walks away*

I'm a right little bitch ( Read more... )

i've been wondering for a while...

if it wouldn't be best for everyone concerned if i were alone

i would stop hurting him with everything i do

and he would meet someone nice.  normal.  who can love him like he  needs to be loved.  who can give him what he wants.

and what would i have?

well.  nothing.

but maybe its best that way.

maybe that way i can ( Read more... )

it would appear that the universe has finally removed its foot from my ass.

for whoever distracted Murphy - thank you.

*ps.  I advise you invest in some vaseline. 

a sales lady from my company just popped around,dropped off two tubes of lip ice and asked me to test and evaluate both samples and report back ( Read more... )

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  We become angry with God, with ourselves, or with others over our loss.
  
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  We become outraged and incensed over the steps that must be taken to overcome our loss.
  
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  We pick out ``scapegoats'' on which to vent our anger, e.g., the doctors, hospitals, clerks, helping agencies, rehabilitation specialists, etc.
  

We begin to use:

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  Self-blaming believing we ( Read more... )

SHOCK / DENIAL

Just as your brain uses shock and numbness to cope with physical trauma, shock and denial is the coping mechanism it uses for mental and/or emotional trauma.

our minds need time... lots of time to adjust to the reality of what has happened. Shock and denial is the natural way in which this happens.

This stage may last just a few ( Read more... )

Denial (this isn't happening to me!)

Anger (why is this happening to me?)

Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)

Depression (I don't care anymore)

Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)

Many people believe that these stages of grief are also experienced by others when they have lost a loved one.

Personally, I think of these ( Read more... )

Bloody hell.  Talk about a month of upheaval.  I thought that this year was supposed to be the calm year of settling?  Bugger it.

Anyway.  That's two decisions down.  About the only thing that's stable right now is...uh.  my fridge.  mayhap i'd best knock on wood quickly before that too needs changing!

I get a bit freaked out when too many things ( Read more... )