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I'm psychotically stupid,,, ahhh ha... lol I dunno I just don't get me ever like a normal person is not I... like why do I feel like I need things,,, why do I feel like anything,,, why do I care about anyone,,,, and most of all, I know Alex says hes not interested so why do I see me with him in the end? like its stupid, unrealistic isnt it? therefore I'm stupid and psychotic ha... PLUS I'm 18 why am I even thinking about who I'm gonna be with for life especialy when we haven't even met yet? screw me!?
Like Alex was on,,, what's today? he was on Tuesday and I didn't IM him, then he wasn't on last night or tonight and I miss him he's the only person I like talk to EVERY night and now I'm not for 3 days and like where is he? and why does he not believe in email? I love him ha ha I do, I'm an ass
When I asked Emily P. "Why do I have to be so psychotic?" she was like you're not, you just think alot, and I asked her everything I asked y'all and when I said "and most of all, I know alex says hes not interested so why do I see me with him in the end? like it's stupid, I'm stupid, I'm psychotic" she was like no your not, you're just optimistic and I'm like thats bad tho she said no, not at all I said ,,,I think so she said no its not I said its unrealistic she said naw I'm like yes it is, not everything is going to turn out the good way,,, he told me hes not interested youd think id get the hint and fuck off ey? but noooo instead I'm like thinking hes gonna be my lover for life and be with me in the end ha ha fuck me
Like Alex was on,,, what's today? he was on Tuesday and I didn't IM him, then he wasn't on last night or tonight and I miss him he's the only person I like talk to EVERY night and now I'm not for 3 days and like where is he? and why does he not believe in email? I love him ha ha I do, I'm an ass
When I asked Emily P. "Why do I have to be so psychotic?" she was like you're not, you just think alot, and I asked her everything I asked y'all and when I said "and most of all, I know alex says hes not interested so why do I see me with him in the end? like it's stupid, I'm stupid, I'm psychotic" she was like no your not, you're just optimistic and I'm like thats bad tho she said no, not at all I said ,,,I think so she said no its not I said its unrealistic she said naw I'm like yes it is, not everything is going to turn out the good way,,, he told me hes not interested youd think id get the hint and fuck off ey? but noooo instead I'm like thinking hes gonna be my lover for life and be with me in the end ha ha fuck me