The Final Straw

Nov 30, 2007 13:46

Title: The Final Straw
Rating: R
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Warning: Implied non-con and physical abuse between pairing, Alcohol addiction.
Disclaimer: This is all fake, never happened and never meant to insult anyone.


You expect me to apologize
for things that you've done wrong.
While you're inciting others.
You're owning up to nothing
and I wish that I was gone,
because you're not going anywhere
"The Sharp Hint Of New Tears" - Dashboard Confessional.

Jensen has denied he was an alcoholic pretty much all of their relationship. He would always come up with some excuse to drink. He'd say he was catching up with Chris or that it had been a tough day at work but he'd always reasoned that he just felt like one.

Jared gave up trying to stop him, it always resulted in heated words and Jensen storming off and not coming back for hours at a time. Jared didn't know how to help him, Jensen was relying on alcohol more often then not and it wasn't the 'Jensen' Jared knew. They didn't do the fun things together anymore, the couple things you do when you’re in a loving relationship. It was Jensen dragging Jared to a bar or a party and Jared always reluctantly agreed.

Jensen drank himself into oblivion and he always gasped when he woke to find his knuckles bruised along with Jared's body. Jared always told him that it was just an accident and that he did it during stunt work, Jensen tried to focus on the lie during the morning after. He tried to ignore Jared's winces of pain and flinches when ever he got remotely close. The thought of hurting Jared made him sick to his stomach, made him want to escape, just leave and not ever look back. It made him want to have another drink and forget about the world, forget everything.

It only took a few times for Jared to learn Jensen's behavior, get it down to a tee. He knew when to shut his mouth and when to answer him, he knew to give him what he wanted and he wouldn't wake up sore in the morning. It wasn't the life he ever wished for himself and he knew that Jensen would never change but when Jensen didn’t drink, that there was the Jensen that made him stay every morning.

Every morning that Jensen woke his head was always cloudy and his memory was just a mix of color and sounds that he never would understand. Sometimes the memory of the previous would come back but it didn't happened often and most times Jensen liked it that way, made it all easier to forget.

So that was why late one morning Jensen woke up his head was throbbing, which was nothing unusual. He slowly woke, allowing his eyes and ears to adjust to the morning. That was when he heard the sound that stirred him from his slumber. He felt around the bed only to find that it was cold and empty. The sheets were thrown all over the floor and the room had an over powering smell. He pulled off the lone sheet and moved his body to sit on the edge of his bed, his feet planted firmly on the ground.
That’s when he noticed it, noticed the scratches up his chest and arms, the bite marks along the inside of his arms. He looked down only to find himself more confused. His soft cock was covered in what looked like dried blood and to make it worse Jensen had no memory of the previous night. For once he wished he could remember.
He was pulled out of his confusion when he heard the sound again. With his head clearer he jumped up and ran to the bathroom where the sound was coming from.
When he entered the bathroom he found a bloody and bruised Jared kneeling on the bathroom floor spewing his stomach content into the toilet bowl. Seeing Jared's limp body still gave him no idea what happened, what had he done.
Jensen quickly went to the basin to grab a wash cloth and brought it back and placed it on Jared’s neck. Jensen would have to be stupid to miss the way Jared flinched and how his breath hic-cupped when Jensen came near.

Jensen crouched down next to Jared. "What happened Jay?"

Jared turned his head to look Jensen in the eyes. "Leave Jen, take your stuff and go please." Jared turned and spewed the rest of his guts up.

"What did I do?" Jensen asked desperately.

"Pl... please" Jared whispered.

"Tell me."

"Yo...You rap...raped me" Jared said in between sobs.

Jensen didn't know what to think. He never thought he was capable of such a disgusting act. "Oh God I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. Fuck, Jay you gotta believe me. I'm really sorry."

"Jensen I don't want you here. Leave please, I don't like you anymore."

"Wa... was I drunk?"

Jared looked Jensen in the eyes again. "Yes."

"I'm so fucking sorry Jay. I didn't mean to I promise I'll never drink again ever."

"Don't make promises you can’t keep."

"I'll do it, you'll see." Jensen pleaded.

"Goodbye Jensen, lock the door when you leave." Jared said as he started dry reaching again.

Jensen didnt want to leave but he had no choice, he already hurt Jared more then enough. He grabbed his belongings and quietly closed the door behind him.

Continued here:
Stuck In A Moment You Can't Get Out Of

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