I Really Don't Know Much Else is There...Oh Wait, I know, I'm a Pussy...

[c_rza]

Re-capping on this past couple of days, I realize that there's just so much about me that is just somewhat indescribable when it beckons for reason. I don't know much else of what to do or say about it, for I know it won't ever change. As much as I could ever pray for it to be altered, for as much as I look into my own body from the outside,

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[avid_dreamer]

Who is this girl - whose birthday party you wanted to go to? And her family?

Sorry to hear about your weekend; if it makes you feel any better, mine was just as bad :(
Hope sunshinez on ur way...

[c_rza]

The girl was the younger sister of a very close friend of mine from, well, kindergarten. It was her special "Sweet Sixteen" and my mother and I were invited. I knew my mother didn't want to go from the minute I saw the invitation. She then hid the R.S.V.P. card because she said she hadn't decided if she wanted to attend. Of course, like I said, she didn't want to go. Time for the sweet sixteen came and my mom didn't want to contribute anything towards a gift. She claimed she didn't have money. Poop-that's what came out of her mouth. But as I got ready for the sweet sixteen, we began arguing again for a good couple of hours. And it hurt me bad because I know what a horrible and selfish person she can be. Especially when I know that I'm so much like her, but then there are definitive differences between us that are just...well...they're practically just two totally different extremes, so to say. I don't know what else to say about her. I just wish she'd change and open her eyes a lil more...The sun's out...I hope it's there