stacy's mom has got it goin' on!

[cadrandsolaire]

So I think things are still good though not fantastic as before but I have no right to complain because as usual this is because i have messed things up for myself. Strange how just a noise can change everything. I ask whats wrong and its "Jay" in a little sad desperate voice and my own pleases sound so similar to my mom's on the phone pleading

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[finestrascurita]

I'm sorry I didn;t say everything I should have, even everything I was thinking. Things will be alright, and I do love you, and just because it's hard sometimes doesn't mean I will stop. I do want the truth. I like to know things all at once, then I can fume and bitch and moan and move on, rather than drawing out the agony. I want to know why you were scared of him, but I feel like a 4 year old, always asking "why" to everything when I know each answer you give it could be asked of again. It was wonderful to hear you tell me how much you love me, and I was tempted to say I felt similarly, but I'm so scared of that. I'm frightened to admit how much I have given myself over to you, and of what will happen when it ends. I know you still don't believe it, but I am envious of your friends- that you could go hang out with Ange and be happier. I have no one like that, I just stayed home and lost myself in imaginary worlds. I'm sorry for talking about Anne maybe too much, but if you can equate your love for me with what I felt for her, surely