And I just don’t know what to do.
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You’re still in the process of choosing. I was happy, yes. And now, after a few hours of you, not replying to my texts, is another sleepless night. I don’t know how to feel. To feel happy because you promised to spend one more day with me; to feel sad that I don’t really know my place in your heart. I don’t know what really happened. We were okay awhile ago and now, I don’t know what’s running inside your mind. You actually did not ask me to wait, but I’m waiting. Love is about struggling for someone you love-even if it’s uncertain. Now you know that I already know him. What’s important is us. You keep on changing your mind, you keep on changing the way you treat me. Everything’s temporary. Honestly, I feel crazy that every minute, every day, in each minute moment, everything can change. In one big decision, you can easily tear me apart. I don’t know what to believe in. I do not know what path I should choose because I chose to wait. I chose to be kept hanging despite his presence. This was my choice. That’s because I love you. I do not want to move on to the next chapter of my life without your decision. I’m waiting. I’m waiting. Just say yes, and I don’t care if I fall deeply in love with you again.
I usually do not like the feeling of not being productive because of delays. And now, I’m allowing myself to be stagnant, just to wait for your decision. I’m in tears, I feel pain, I feel hurt. Deep within me, I still feel my love for you. I don’t want you to leave me… I don’t want you go. Please don’t go? I love you. I love you…