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I am sleepy at the moment, and experiencing a clearheaded instance in which I ponder my future, without fear or consternation. I'm in fact conspiring to leave my job at the end of the contract without new prospects I am almost determined. I want to take a class and volunteer/work at the Long Marine Laboratory. Insanely enough, I have never taken an ( Read more... ) -
housing frustration
I've started to look for housing in the event that I do actually get a job (still crossing fingers) and I'm realizing I just cannot afford a 1-bd by myself in South Bay. So if any of y'all know someone looking to share a 2-bd, I'm game ( Read more... ) -
Post-graduation lull
I wonder if most new graduates spend their summer doing next to nothing. I wonder if its typical to wait months to get a new job straight out of school; I guess that depends on how many are forgoing graduate school on the first time around. Do they expect us to know straight off where we want to go with our lives and our education? Should we be ( Read more... ) -
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I'm feeling kind of sick and realizing that I still haven't figured out whether my parent's health insurance still covers me. It's a scary thought, to be unsure about that. I'm also realizing that I've been out of school for two months and still don't have a job lined up. I wonder if that's normal or whether there are multitudes of new graduates in ( Read more... ) -
Reason vs Arrogant Prater
It took a long strange set of link hops to make it to the UCLA taser incident on wikipedia, but somehow I did it. And more shocking than the video footage of the incident itself is the spectrum of horrible, insolent, and arrogant comments that spawned from the post. Has the internet given us a forum for the spread of knowledge and information, or ( Read more... ) -
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i keep looking up graduate schools even though i've decided not to apply directly. its funny how i still have the unconscious determination to go to graduate school when my conscious mind is unsure and quite petrified. perhaps its my PA upbringing, which always impressed upon us the importance of our education (or perhaps its that asian gene ( Read more... ) -
getting by
I was going back through facebook, on my way to a full hour of procrastination, and I don't know how I keep coming back to Eleanor and others I once knew who have passed on. It maybe I have a morbid streak, but it's really scary to think about how young they all were. And it just leaves me thinking, "when do I join them ( Read more... ) -
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I was walking to class today, listening to Candle in the Wind, and for some strange reason thought of my grandfather. He died when I was four, so I don't remember a lot about him, but he used to be my favorite grandparent. And I realized I still don't know almost anything about him. All I know is that he was born in San Francisco, his family owned ( Read more... ) -
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So last night when I was driving back to the house, I hit a deer. Straight on. It was kind of scary for the thousandth of a second between realizing that I was going to hit it and actually hitting it. Funny enough, it didn't even deflect the car.... I feel terrible, both because of the poor deer, and because there is now an interesting dent in the ( Read more... ) -
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So many emotions colliding within this form. I feel infinitely sad about future prospects being so cleverly hidden from me, but I also feel vast relief and love for everyone who has been there for me in the last year or two, when things have been so hard. I really sacrificed security for knowledge way back then, without a shiny glimmer of what I'd ( Read more... )