Why don't I post to LJ often very often?

[cafemusique]

I was in the middle of responding to somebody's journal post, when it hit...the "I don't know if I should be posting this" qualm

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[chestnutcurls]

I can relate to this. It can be hard to know how much to share, and even harder when your life is so entwined with someone else's.

Congrats on your green card!

[keenman]

I hope you don't have trouble with the Oath of Citizenship like I did. That's what prompted me to move back to Canada.

[cafemusique]

I don't currently have any trouble with it. I expect that some of it will "give me pause," when it becomes a possibility, in a way that no amount of thinking about it before the fact can. But my wife is here and I can't imagine being in a position to sponsor her into Canada...so my realistic choices are going to be either to become a citizen or to remain a permanent resident for the foreseeable future.

[keenman]

That's good. I wish I hadn't, that affected my whole life. But I love Toronto.

[moredetails]

And...oh, let's quit dancing around this issue. I've also been having a very tough time figuring out who I am lately. Not so much figuring out who I am, but figuring out what I should do in response to who I am. How open should I be? Can I cope with others' reactions? Can I cope with strangers' comments? Can I cope with family and friends who may disagree? Can I cope with acquaintances who might no longer want anything to do with me? Would I lose my job? If I stay in my job, would it destroy a place I value?

You're making me curious! And still dancing around the issue. :P

[cafemusique]

Guilty as charged. But that I've managed to post anything is a small victory, even if it's as opaque and cryptic as what I managed to say.

[cafemusique]

I finally stopped dancing around the issue. http://cafemusique.livejournal.com/808805.html

I'm sure you can see why I wanted to be REALLY sure before I said anything, even in the relative safety of friends-locked posts on LJ.

Sorry it took two more years to get here.

[moredetails]

Yeah, I sort of learned of this through Twitter several months ago. I don't really know what to say.

[melytha]

Are you still around?! I'm just peeking at old entries from people on my friends of list. I didn't know you got married...either that or it's just been so long. My husband is an American citizen too, so I know what the green card process is like! I know what you mean about your spouse being your listening ear too and not needing a journal outlet so much anymore. I had pretty much stopped posting in my journal for awhile, too. Anyway... just saying hi.

[cafemusique]

I'm still around, though exclusively a reader (and occasional commenter) these days.