Too strung up to sleep
I have so many thoughts swimming in my head these days. I'm not really sure when or where I lost my focus, but I'd like it back. I haven't lifted in over a week. I never got on track with my cardio. My eating has stayed pretty healthy so at least I'm not ballooning into a Good Year Blimp. I just think of where I was the beginning of second semester senior year. Perhaps you saw me floating over stadiums providing aerial coverage of the NFL playoffs. I am significantly smaller than that. About 25-30 lbs if you judge by gravitational pull on my body mass. But there was a significant loss of body fat and gain of muscle mass. I notice it in little things. I get chilly and rub my upper arm. Definitely a bit bigger. And other odd moments like that. My favorite of course being the accidental grabbing of the jeans that Mom bought which were a size too small and then finding out they fit. That was nice.
Then there is intellectually. I am fighting myself to design pySleuth (my latest open source project). I don't have the patience to solve my Debian wireless issues. My server still isn't set up. My PhotoBlog is just a photo gallery lacking an aspects of a blog. I just can't make myself do it. Instead I stare at bad TV when I get home. Why? I don't know.
So where am I going with all this? I don't know. Mostly I feel like I am drifting and that's not a good place for me to be. I need to find that legendary John focus. That ability to be the overachiever and fit more into a day than humanly possible. I need to get my routine back. I feel my room might have a lot to do with it. It hasn't been rearranged in a while. It needs a good move everything and clean. That's why I took Friday off. I plan to do that. Plus then my bed arrives on Saturday. Rearranging my furniture and such has always been an invigorating thing. Then I need to force myself to start working out again. Of course once my brain gets out of this fog I'm sure the pySleuth thing will come together.
I have no clue what this post was. I'm going to stop talking now. Hey, at least I'm not going to Houston.
"I had no idea what was outside, I didn't even think there was an outside." - Last Response by Negative Format