Exhausted!
So I'm pretty damn tired today. I realized that though I've been giving myself 3 day weekends, I haven't been spending them relaxing. This may be part of my problem. I also haven't been working out consistently or taking my vitamin regularly. Plus my eating habits have sucked. Breakfast and lunch have been ok because I have a pattern there. But my dinner and meals on weekends have been very haphazard. I need to be better at this. I'm actually a little more upset about a comment made on Saturday than I want to be. Some dude at the party made a comment when I put on Lisa's Batman mask about Batman being out of shape. This shouldn't have bothered me too much. I mean I was walking around in a wife-beater even though I don't look my best, but still. It's my goddamn house. And oh wait. You are a 30-something y/o man, who isn't in great shape either hanging out with 23-24 y/o's trying to pretend you are cool. Don't slap me on the back. We aren't buddies. In fact you are a pathetic asshole. F*ck yourself! Ok, that feels a little better. I also vaguely recall saying something about cutting him from stem to sternum so at least I didn't take it lying down. It just bothered me because I have slacked in my workouts. I haven't put weight back on in any noticable way, but I also haven't lost anymore. Grumble!
I also have to be honest and admit that the whole Chris drama hurt more than I was willing to talk about. My head is becoming ok with it all. I mean he's a flake. This has been proven in the week since we had our conversation and decided to be friends. His "more free time" that he's supposed to have and such hasn't change anything. He still doesn't return phone calls and bails on plans last minute. So I am glad we aren't dating. I would have gone crazy and it would have ended in me having a super hippy freak out. So I've decided that I won't call or make plans. He's just a guy I will hear from once a week on IM or something and if I'm around to catch it I'm sure it will be a funny conversation. But I did like him for some odd reason. I felt very comfortable with him. So it sucks a bit. But I do think that some of that is the loss of dating someone more so than the loss of dating Chris and I have to keep them separated.
I started hanging with this guy Troy recently. He's a lot of fun. We started talking on IM and such last week. Friday he met me at the mall since I had to grab some stuff and he lives nearby it. He joined me on my random adventure in the toy store which was super fun and then bought me coffee at Starbucks. [Yeah I know. Ewww @ Starbucks. But it was free and purchased by a cute boy]. I'm not diving into this all crazy like which is good. I know some of that is having learned some lessons from my experience with Chris. I know some of it is defense mechanism from my experience with Chris. Either way I think it is healthy. Our first hang out was at the mall and there wasn't even a hug at the end. In contrast to Chris in which we watched a movie at my place and then proceeded to make out and have a sleep over. Sometimes I'm really dumb. Troy did stop by the party late on Saturday but unfortunately it was dying when he got there. We chatted a little and I met his friend Becky who is odd. We were both on the end of our drunk so it was kind of blah. But there was a good night hug which was cool. We both then proceeded to leave messages for each other apologizing for being so out of it. Which was pretty funny.
We will see what happens with that. So far he seems pretty cool (though a little less masculine than I normally like). He's an overachiever geek like the rest of us. He is currently taking a little time off from med school but plans to go back soon. He was enrolled at Johns Hopkins but then moved up here to Boston. He just took a job with Tufts to try to help his chances of getting in without having to retake Orgo. It was funny we wandered into Borders in the mall and he dragged me over to the medical reference section. I of course proceeded to then drag him to the computer section. Hey, it's only fair.
Mostly this week I am looking forward to going to VT. I think I need the change of scenary. It's always good to see the people up there. Plus there is something relaxing about Burlington. It is home in a lot of ways and definitely helps me get my head together. Plus the good food and crazy times are always so much fun.
In other good news, registration for grad classes at NEU started today. YAY!!! I think this means I should have my account and such soon. If not I'll have to call them. I looked at the course offering as if I have much of a choice LOL! I will be taking Foundations of Information Assurance Saturdays 9:00-Noon and Ethics, Privacy and Digital Rights Saturdays 1:30-4:30pm. What a busy Saturday. I'm pretty psyched about it.
For now I will get back to work. Our transactions are still not going through correctly. But I will leave you all with these countdowns.
26 Days until the First Pre-Season NFL Game (August 6th Atlanta VS Indianapolis in Tokyo, Japan 5am on ESPN2 Replayed at 6pm on ESPN)
59 Days until the Official Kick Off of the NFL Season (September 8th Oakland @ New England 9pm on ABC)
61 Days until my first day of classes as a grad student!
117 Days until my Birthday! HAPPY 27!
136 Days until Thanksgiving!
167 Days until Christmas!
173 Days left in the Year!
I'll let your wild ocean
Hold my light while you're quite broken...it's alright
I'll let the emotion roll my eyes
If not I apologize
- Passenger by I Mother Earth