Updatey Goodness
Well it's been a little while since I posted something real. Life has been odd but in a good way lately.
School:
Classes are still going awesome. We talked about some cool things this week. And I wasn't completely bored to tears by the Foundations class. After class I talked with Mike (the cute guy who may or may not have been hitting on me). He is very cool. We talk about all kinds of security stuff. Turns out he lives down the street from me and offered me a ride home. Sweet! This was especially good timing given the fact that the Sox had just lost to the Yankees and I didn't want to be on the T at all. Mike and I agreed to team up and war game a little together which should be fun. We are going to try and break into each other's systems. Should be a blast.
I am especially looking forward to Thursday. They are letting me leave work early and I get to go to campus. A bunch of us are meeting with Kawika to build the hack farm. YAY! He is ordering pizza and we will be building old machines and installing various levels of OSes and patches. Then we will be able to hack them. YAY! I can't wait. I've been trying to hack my own windows machine this week and have had little luck. I think I've patched her too well. Guess that's not a bad thing.
Work:
So I learned about a particularly bad security hole in class on Saturday and turns out our software here at work is full of this stuff. YAY! So I did some assessments and wrote up an evaluation which I forwarded along to my PM (Project Manager). He was very happy with it, though he missed the boat on a few things. I think there will be more discussion and some of my suggestions will be taken into account. Either way, I can now write up some security work into the description of this project on my resume. MWAHAHA!!! I always have a motive ;-)
That Boy:
I really couldn't be happier. Though he nearly killed me on Saturday. We were supposed to hang out but he was sick so we didn't. Instead he napped and we talked like 5 times on the phone. LOL! On our last conversation before he went to bed we were joking around. I said something to make fun of him and was like "Oh I'm a bastard." He responded "Yes, you are. But I love you." I just about fell out of my chair. So figuring this was a slip or something (as I say things like that to friends all the time) I just moved on. "Did you just call me a bastard? That's not nice." He said "Yeah I did, but then I said I love you." I proceeded to stop breathing. Then when I got light-headed I remembered I should probably start breathing again. I couldn't say anything. I stumbled over several attempted responses and nothing. I mean I really like Ryan. A LOT! But do I love him? I really didn't think I'd have to think about these things for a while. It's been less than 2 months (a week from Friday will be 2 months :-D). I figured I had until at least Thanksgiving. HA! So I stumbled over myself and tried to explain that I wasn't freaked like Oh my god run away freaked but just shocked.
We talked about it the next day when I went up there to go apple picking. I think I explained myself better. I mean I think I do love him in the same way I love all my friends. I light up like an effin' XMas tree when he calls or emails. We've been told we are cute to the point of vomitting by several people who've hung out with us. After talking to Sam about it a bit it all made more sense to me. I do love him in that way. He is a big part of my life already and I'm starting to think long term about us. But I don't think I'm 'In Love' with him yet. That will take time. Probably more time for me because I'm a freak. I know that his sharing some of what happened with his ex probably made him feel very close to me. He trusted me with some painful stuff and I think my reaction (quite visibly upset that anyone could hurt him) made him feel very safe with me.
Fortunately he is not one of those people who feels the need to say it constantly as if it is good bye on every phone call. That makes me nuts. But just knowing that he feels that close to me makes me happy. As Lisa observed, "Did you ever think you'd be here in this place right now?" And the answer is honestly no. It is where I wanted to be, but I never stopped to consider what it would be like to be here.
Really the only downside to my life these days, besides constant motion and little free time(which isn't totally a bad thing), is the fact that so many of the people who I want to share it with aren't close by. Talking to Sam about it on IM just wasn't the same. I wanted to give her a BIG hug. Many of you will hear about it on here first. And MA and I are very far behind on each others' lives. I am thankful for LJ in that at least I can stay somewhat connected to those of you who have spread yourselves across the world. We really do need to get everyone back to New England eventually though. I want you all within a day trip's distance. Maybe I'm just greedy like that. :-D