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I have a lot of guilt and anger concerning my mom. I'm angry at her because she won't let me go to celebrate recovery and church. I feel guilty because she has cancer and I feel like I shouldn't be angry at her. I also feel angry because she said I am eventually going to have to choose between my job and my activities. If she would just let me use ( Read more... ) -
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Well my first couple of days at walmart went well. I'm not going to have to work on Fridays, which is a relief, but my mom's chemo appointments are on fridays. So I'm going to have to find a way to work around that so I can go to Celebrate Recovery. I really need that in my life right now ( Read more... ) -
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Well I'm not going to have to work Friday nights, I found that out. Although part of the reason why they hired me is they thought I would be working Friday nights. I found out that my mom's chemo appointments are on Fridays though. That may interfere with me going to Celebrate Recovery. It's funny, I feel like I really need them right now and it ( Read more... ) -
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I forgot to put this in my last entry. I don't feel peaceful right now. I feel really tensed up, like something bad is going to happen. -
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Well I got the job at Walmart. I am getting ready to go up there for orientation as soon as I leave here. But I have a lot of fears concerning this job, most of which have to do with my schedule. I only want to work Saturdays and Sundays. My biggest fear is that they will expect me to work during the week and I will have to tell them no and then I ( Read more... ) -
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My week has been broadsided. I woke up monday morning with a horrible headache and slept in so late I missed breakfast. They let me lie down in Wellness which was good then my mom came and got me so I've been at her house. I'm going to be able to go to CR's sixth anniversary celebration tomorrow and Hannah's birthday party Sunday. I am going to be ( Read more... ) -
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Boy my depression has kicked in again and I found myself crying in my sponsor's arms. I hope she doesn't think I'm weird. She probably doesn't because she understands me and loves me ( Read more... ) -
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I'm doing much better today and my week overall was better. I haven't had much stress or anxiety, I got to work on a project by myself in carpentry, and I overcame a fear yesterday and experienced something truly thrilling. Actually, I overcame two fears this week. My project in carpentry involved taking down and putting up a fence, and I had to ( Read more... ) -
What Do You Have To Say? - I'm Taking It With Me
I'd take this photograph of Stephanie and I from eight years ago. It was taken shortly before she went off to college and I started 10th grade. It shows me with blond hair and a gray t shirt and Steph in a red jumper. We have our arms around each other and smiling. It reminds me of our friendship and how like wine, friendship (if it's true) gets ( Read more... )