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Apr 16, 2006 02:08

I like that suddenly I'm not so straight, I'm crooked, if only till when I wake up ( Read more... )

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thisisjacks April 16 2006, 06:26:46 UTC

You're amazing.

calendarxdeath April 16 2006, 13:30:00 UTC

Thank you for thinking that... that kind of thought keeps me alive.

thisisjacks April 16 2006, 15:22:07 UTC

Seriously, you've got A LOT of skill with words.
I would do something with that before it's too late.

calendarxdeath April 17 2006, 14:53:22 UTC

... it already is.

I know this hurts. it was meant to. ifswallowed April 17 2006, 14:40:27 UTC

I can't believe you. I can't believe you fucking broke edge because of one stupid fight. Well, it WAS just a stupid fight and now its not so stupid anymore.

I WON'T call you just to hear silence and the same old thing over and over. 'It was a joke. I do that with everyone.' And I understand that. But you KNOW why I got the way I did. You KNOW I'm messed up. If you DIDN'T know that then why did you stick around? I warned you. Don't say I didn't because I know damn well you do know I change moods more often then my bed sheets so dont play the dumb card.

I thought the last post was bad? Yeah, well way to make me feel like the scum of the earth and oh I'm banking that everyone on your friends page is reading this and saying 'that bitch' and yeah, they're probably right. I am a bitch. But you stuck around for some reason.

Look, I love you. I just need time to THINK and bask in my own lameness and probably kil off one of my lungs. Whatever the case may be. I have to do it.

Re: I know this hurts. it was meant to. calendarxdeath April 17 2006, 15:05:19 UTC

I broke edge BECAUSE it was stupid, and I couldn't with the everything at once like this. I couldn't deal with a dial tone as a response to "I love you". So I went and smoked a sugar-coated cigarette. (That's not even a metaphor, it's literalI had a drink, and the drugs, because I thought maybe I could shove it all from my mind, but I couldn't, and it was a stupid idea anyways; I've never once claimed to be smart. Never once. All the drugs made me do was fake smiles better. I didn't even get enough alcohol to change anything but the effect of the pot ( ... )