Why, tell me. Whyyyyyyyy did I spend so much of my time talking about the pain that the whole Joel series in my life was, but I never wrote about how I felt about the shit that went down between me and Amanda Spendlove?

Like.

Amanda Spendlove was Stephanie Bedford-level trauma. I don’t remember anyone from my childhood by name. Except for Megan but I ( Read more... )

Hey, hahaha. Look what I found.

https://www.healthline.com/health/adhd/adult-adhd

I uh.... ahahaha. HAVE ALL OF THOSE SYMPTOMS TO SOME DEGREE.

WOW HOW CUTE.

LIKE WHAT AN INTERESTING THING.

HI I HAVEN'T SLEPT ALL NIGHT AND I NEED TO SCHOOL.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

So ya girl's on meds, right? I'm trying to get my sleep, and I'm also in therapy (I need to make an appointment with my second therapist, though). AND STILL. I can't help but procrastinate.

I outline when I have to do what, I put that shit on the internet and my phone, I write it out. And. Nothing.

It's so hard to decide whether it's my fault or an ( Read more... )

I've been writing in this internet space since I was in middle school and that fact alone is still incredible to me.

Anyway, I'm in the middle of a middle school class as we speak. I'm doing observations and this is the bit of class where students are allowed to work with whomever they want, wherever they want so there's so much to see in the ( Read more... )

So after work on the 10th, I ended up rushing over to Vic's place, and he and I spent basically the next couple days together. Most of it was pretty heavenly, we got weed and went to give edibles to Shannon and Namiq, then we went to watch Casablanca with Matt and Amanda, and we also went to IKEA and I got those good organizing things. Most of the ( Read more... )

I lost my mail-in ballot, which was a bummer because I brought it around with me a couple of places so that I could remember to fill it out, and of course me bringing it around is what led to me losing it. Anyway, I got a provisional ballot which works well enough for me; I still got the diddly-dang sticker! Also the losing of this material has ( Read more... )

So, I've always loved the ability to go back to my middle school brain and see how I thought, how I wrote, and what was happening in my life. I'm not yet removed enough from my college years to be okay with looking back on that, but. We move forward.

Anyway, I want to be able to remember my life as it was now, in grad school, hopefully living at ( Read more... )

THE LAST TIME I POSTED TO THIS I SERIOUSLY AND TRULY BELIEVED I WAS GONNA MARRY JOEL CRIBB ( Read more... )

Fuck this pit in the bottom of my stomach and this awful empty feeling.

I'm going on a walk and smoking my emergency cigarette.

HEY, YOU. STUPID COLLECTION OF ALL MY RANTS AND MISTAKES AND EVERY BAD THING THAT'S HAPPENED IN MY LIFE EVER. LET'S MAKE YOU A TINY BIT MORE OPTIMISTIC ( Read more... )