I'm only half me

[calliopeo]

Running on the treadmill yesterday, I could see myself in the mirror, and the controls of machine cut my body in half. The top half of me looks like me, a thinnish, muscularish, pretty enough kind of girl running along. Below the cut were these dimpled, white, cellulite-y left pounding along, and all I could look at were the knees, and how the

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[sfeley]

I'm no expert on your particular booty, but I find it interesting that you identify only half of you as "you." I wonder if your lower half is simply refusing to cooperate out of low self-esteem?

[calliopeo]

Yeah, only my knees have low self esteem :)

[wendyblackheart]

I have/had the same issue. I have what can politely be described as a ginormous ass. From the waist up, I'm fairly proportionate, and I'm cool with that. Yeah, my upper arms are a little matronly, but they still feel like me. And even my ass *feels* like me, until I look at it and go 'holy shit, how is this attached to me? And why do the back of my thighs look like cottage cheese?' (Note: They don't *actually* look like cottage cheese. But I used to think they did.)

I used to joke with my sister that genetics messed up with us - we're two bodies with the tops swapped - she's got no butt to speak of, but a huge rack. I have no rack, but a giant but. Switch us up, and we'd find a dress that fits.

I can't really offer any advice on reconciling this, as I haven't really done it myself, but I can commiserate, and say that you're not the only one who thinks of yourself in halves.

[calliopeo]

There aren't enough girls who look like us in the media I suppose :)

Someday, someone is going to sing the praises of cellulite, and then I'll be much happier :/

[sfeley]

It's been done. Famously.

[calliopeo]

The woman on that cover does NOT have cellulite.

Odes to large rear ends are in evidence (Bootylicious, Honky tonk badonkadonk, Baby Got Back, Culo, etc--not that I'm paying attention). But the beauty of skin that looks like cottage cheese remains to be celebrated.

[kbgilmore]

I think both halves of you are gorgeous. Just sayin' it again.

[calliopeo]

Thanks :)

The thing is, I KNOW that--it's just hard to believe :)