If you are still on lj you will survive
The following will contain vitriol with no respect for feelings and will probably be supportive of rape culture . Fuck off.
I am pretty fucking submissive. I have sucked cock and take. Huge hits off a bong without wanting to because some man I thought in my deep mind was my dominant wanted me to. And then been hated for it. I've fallen deep into subspace without meaning to. I have cried the morning-- hell, I have cried 5 minutes after.
But here's the thing. I chose. By being there,by not objecting, by wanting. I woke up feeling like shit sometimes-- and it was my fault. Mine. I lost track of myself. I chose to let myself go.
I was told once that I had self- possession coming out of my ears. After sucking some guy's balls for hours. A guy who was shocked when I was angry that he could only fuck me for a minute -- after I told him what I wanted.
It hurts. It's terrifying. Every goddamn time. I want so desperately to be up for whatever. Why do I do it? Because I need to advocate for myself.
So fuck you, bitches who decide the next day. Fuck you, submissives who can't say no. Go home. Protect us all. Grow some fucking balls. Say no. And if you say yes and regret it in the morning-- learn. Grow. Say no next time. Don't blame the people who had the audacity to believe you when you say yes.
I am pretty fucking submissive. I have sucked cock and take. Huge hits off a bong without wanting to because some man I thought in my deep mind was my dominant wanted me to. And then been hated for it. I've fallen deep into subspace without meaning to. I have cried the morning-- hell, I have cried 5 minutes after.
But here's the thing. I chose. By being there,by not objecting, by wanting. I woke up feeling like shit sometimes-- and it was my fault. Mine. I lost track of myself. I chose to let myself go.
I was told once that I had self- possession coming out of my ears. After sucking some guy's balls for hours. A guy who was shocked when I was angry that he could only fuck me for a minute -- after I told him what I wanted.
It hurts. It's terrifying. Every goddamn time. I want so desperately to be up for whatever. Why do I do it? Because I need to advocate for myself.
So fuck you, bitches who decide the next day. Fuck you, submissives who can't say no. Go home. Protect us all. Grow some fucking balls. Say no. And if you say yes and regret it in the morning-- learn. Grow. Say no next time. Don't blame the people who had the audacity to believe you when you say yes.