One last entry before I go....
This very accurately captures how I've been feeling as of late.... Most beautiful song in the world I think...
Hello, if you're there pick up the phone
I'm calling from 30,000 feet above you
The captain's just informed us that our plane is going down
So I'm calling for one last time to say I love you
I'm not certain how much time I may have left, so I'll be brief
I'm sorry if this message only amplifies your grief
But I couldn't bear the burden of never having said goodbye
And the pain you feel, I promise you, will go away with time
I'm sorry I won't be there to see our children grow
Please tell them that I loved them more than they will ever know
Tell my family and friends how much I loved them all as well
I"m sure that we will meet again, but only time will tell
I'm sorry most of all I won't be there when you grow old
To be there by your side and keep you warm when you are cold
Forgive me, but I think my time is drawing to a close
So I've one last thing to tell you now before I have to go
I...
This entry is also meant to be a public appology, everyone and their mother will be able to read it, sorry if that upsets anyone. Don't worry though, names will not be mentioned. Whoever I'm saying sorry to will know who they are...
I'm sorry for all the things I posted about us, letting people into our private lives was not the way to go about fixing the problems we have/had. It was a stupid, childish way to try to get back at you, and I now realize the damage it did. For all the hurt I've caused I'm eternally sorry... I know this doesn't take it back or fix anything, nor do I expect you to forgive me for it. I have to do this for myself and so that you will perhaps understand the depths of my regret at the mistakes I've made. I will never have a day when you don't cross my mind, and never a day when my heart won't cry out for you. Whatever you're doing now, with whomever, I truly hope that you are happy, healthy, and above all in love. For all the hurt that last one has caused, it is still my most treasured of emotions. I fear I may never truly love again, but I suppose only time will tell. Thank you for blessing my life with your presance while I was fortunate enough to have you. I will forever treasure the good memories...sadly I'll never forget the bad... but they no longer rule my existence. For all it's worth, I'll forever love you.
Hello, if you're there pick up the phone
I'm calling from 30,000 feet above you
The captain's just informed us that our plane is going down
So I'm calling for one last time to say I love you
I'm not certain how much time I may have left, so I'll be brief
I'm sorry if this message only amplifies your grief
But I couldn't bear the burden of never having said goodbye
And the pain you feel, I promise you, will go away with time
I'm sorry I won't be there to see our children grow
Please tell them that I loved them more than they will ever know
Tell my family and friends how much I loved them all as well
I"m sure that we will meet again, but only time will tell
I'm sorry most of all I won't be there when you grow old
To be there by your side and keep you warm when you are cold
Forgive me, but I think my time is drawing to a close
So I've one last thing to tell you now before I have to go
I...
This entry is also meant to be a public appology, everyone and their mother will be able to read it, sorry if that upsets anyone. Don't worry though, names will not be mentioned. Whoever I'm saying sorry to will know who they are...
I'm sorry for all the things I posted about us, letting people into our private lives was not the way to go about fixing the problems we have/had. It was a stupid, childish way to try to get back at you, and I now realize the damage it did. For all the hurt I've caused I'm eternally sorry... I know this doesn't take it back or fix anything, nor do I expect you to forgive me for it. I have to do this for myself and so that you will perhaps understand the depths of my regret at the mistakes I've made. I will never have a day when you don't cross my mind, and never a day when my heart won't cry out for you. Whatever you're doing now, with whomever, I truly hope that you are happy, healthy, and above all in love. For all the hurt that last one has caused, it is still my most treasured of emotions. I fear I may never truly love again, but I suppose only time will tell. Thank you for blessing my life with your presance while I was fortunate enough to have you. I will forever treasure the good memories...sadly I'll never forget the bad... but they no longer rule my existence. For all it's worth, I'll forever love you.