Seeds (Michael/Lincoln, R, dark)

[callmetofu]

Title: Seeds
Author: callmetofu
Pairing: Michael/Lincoln
Rating: R
Warnings: Non-con, incestslash, underage, abuse, dark subject matter
Disclaimer: Not mine
Beta: The amazingly wonderful deadbeat_nymph
Notes: For the February challenge. Michael/Lincoln non-con

Comments

[callmetofu]

Thank you. I had very mixed feelings about writing this. I hear my pre-beta version was even more disturbing.

I'm glad it still worked.

Thank you for reading and commenting.

[tuesdaeschild]

This did make disturbing reading, although it was somehow compulsive.

What Lincoln did to his brother was entirely wrong but weren't his intentions, at least, noble? He wanted to take Michael's pain away but succeeded only in causing him more pain. Yes, he loved his brother so much but he showed it in the most inappropriate way.

And that last line? Chilling!

This was beautifully written though, with such tenderness towards little Michael. An achingly sad tale but I loved it. Which is slightly disturbing too!

[callmetofu]

Thank you a lot for reading it. I've always wanted to write some really, really young M/L, but even I, huge shipper that I am, can't get over the reality that it would be extremely scarring.

I needed Michael's POV to create some perspective.

I believe that the Lincoln in this story is in his own way just as messed up and misguided, even though it isn't emphasized in the story.

[tuesdaeschild]

It really would leave both brothers scarred. And yes, Lincoln is just as messed up, and though it wasn't emphasised here I do feel you wrote him almost sympathetically so the reader would get the sense that you're not out and out condemning him.

I really felt bad for both boys in this tale, so well done you for giving it that slant.

[callmetofu]

My original draft was a lot more disturbing according to my beta. It wasn't that different and only had four or five different word choices, all more childish. Undies rather than briefs. Prick or dickie rather than penis. Some references to Michael being small.

deadbeat_nymph and I talked about it and she thought it was wrong for the story. I remembered there was a similar discussion in the supernatural fandom a long time ago about a story with such young characters that produced a lot of strong opinions. I didn't want any implications to fall back on me.

My interpretation is that for Lincoln in this story it's more a lack of boundaries and inability to express affection in normal ways, not uncommon for traumatized children, rather than pedophilic attraction.

Originally I had a companion piece in mind that dealt with young Lincoln's first sexual experience, but it felt wrong in context. It's an interesting topic, to think about trauma and how it would affect a character's actions, but I didn't want to overdo it.

[jolietjones]

Oooh - dark dark dark! That must have been a little disturbing to write.

Beautifully written though.

[callmetofu]

Thank you for reading it. It means a lot to me that people gave it a try even though it's not a pleasant story.

[happywriter06]

This is one of those pieces where you go, "DAMN!" The whole description of the molestation is just chilling. It feels very real.

It was inside that house on Pershing Avenue that Michael learned that there were nightmares worse than Lincoln.
This just makes me want to weep.

Reading slash really puts a different spin on their relationship but this just wrecks it so to speak. Like if this did happen, Michael can't let him go and he really should.

Bravo!

[callmetofu]

I love writing about the brothers in a slashed way, but even I can't deny that realistically it would likely be very unhealthy.

The funny thing is that while I can't really see Lincoln really acting this way, I could picture the Michael that had this happen to him turn into the Michael we see on screen.

[happywriter06]

I love writing about the brothers in a slashed way, but even I can't deny that realistically it would likely be very unhealthy.
Absolutely. I think that's part of the reason why the angst factor is always so high because that's always lurking in the background.

[callmetofu]

I think that's why my stories are always needlessly complicated. I always need an excuse for why they are starting to look at each other sexually. I can't justify particularly Lincoln seeing Michael in a sexual way just because without it feeling disturbing

[callmetofu]

Thank you. It was very challenging to write it like that. For Michael's reaction to come through to the reader even as Lincoln the narrator doesn't understand them.