Silent tears...

[calmatomicbomb]

Most people who know me, know me as a very outward, vocal person.  They don't see me as the type who keeps things to myself.  Most would think that if something is on my mind, I'm going to let the whole world know.  Even though I won't keep something to myself if it involves another person, if it involves me, and only me, it shall never be divulged

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[_goaskalice]

They don't see me as the type who keeps things to myself
Buzz. Wrong answer. All jokes aside, I told you you're a monster. Not in a literal sense [[that's only when I'm fucked up]] but in a figurative sense. You're a walking time bomb, Bill. Anyone that knows you can see it.

...it's more or less the fact that I know that nobody TRULY gives a fuck enough to help me.
You're fucking dumb if you truly believe that. We're your friends. We give a fuck. It's our job.

Without asking me anything (or by reading this journal), you would never know that anything is wrong with me.
I sensed it a bit the other day but didn't want to say anything to you about it because I was with people.

& holding things in is never good. That's how people explode.

[calmatomicbomb]

Maybe I'm just being pessimistic. I dunno things are rough...

[anonymous]

Surprize welcome to my world.

response to bill's journal

[anonymous]

I'd have to agree with this guy. Never good to keep things in and you are dumb to think no one cares. To be honest, sometimes ppl say "oh man that sux anywayz" because not everyone knows how to respond. It's not in their nature to be all loving and caring about it. When you let emotions out, not everyone is comfortable to respond in the way you would hope, friends are always there for you and always care though despite how you see it through that dark world of yours. And btw there are more then 1 person that i can think of that wouldn't be like OH MAN THAT SUX and that's all. But that's for you to figure out i think.

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[anonymous]

Agree with Goatsy guy up there*******(who i meant to agree with)

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[calmatomicbomb]

and who are you as well?

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[calmatomicbomb]

Who are you?

Well

[beatsan]

Here I am reading this and letting you know that some people just don't know how to go about showing that they give a fuck. They probably do and just don't know what could be done to help the situation.

People try to care but often don't know how to. Or sometimes they just don't realize how much a situation is hurting that one person (ie. how serious it is). What I'm trying to say is that YEA there are some people who just don't care but you can't put everyone under that "doesn't give a shit" column. There are people out there who genuinely do and don't know how to go about fixing things.

In another case people have different give a shit fuses wrapped in dynamite. They have one because they have a conscience. They all vary in length and combustibility. Your problem might just not be enough to get a spark...but it's not that they don't care. It could just be tough love or a wet fuse in this case. Ignore this paragraph if it doesn't make sense Lol.

Well hope you feel better soon. I'm sure that bust of a Friday didn't help Lol.

[deadlevel17]

Your completely 100% right. No, I'm not being a dick and yes, do take solace in knowing that whatever it is will pass.

If you don't..that can become an ugly direction.

Just wear a 'mask'. It helps.

Later