here comes calvin, ready to fuck more shit up. thats right folks i fucked up again, anyone surprised..... i didnt think so. im afraid to go see my boy adam cause that involves walkin across the bridge and i dont think i could do that without actin on the impulse to just jump. ha ha ha im fuckin crazy, and the armys gonna give ME a gun. wish me ( Read more... )

so this week i get to get off probation(kick ass), take my oath for the military(eep), decide when im goin to basic(im screwed), and try to figure out how i can fix me and sarah(im screwed again). all i want is to do somethin meaningful with my life and all im gettin is crap. everyones tellin me im gonna fail. wtf this is comin from my friends. ( Read more... )

im sick of hurtin people, im sick of tryin to change, im sick of life, for once i just wantsomeone to give me a fuckin manual as to what to do with life, cause all i want is a short drop and a sudden stop, for those who know what i mean

ive signed my paperwork, i passed my physical, and all i have to is choose the date i leave for basic. i thin im gonna go the first available date. i dont have any reason to wait anymore. sorry guys

Well its tuesday now, and no word from my recruiter. I guess thats good news to all those who dont want me to join. Blah! I was so worked up and the guy never even showed. Thats ok though i know hell be callin me soon. ugh, ive been sleepin like crap lately. All i wanna do is curl up next to my sarah and sleep for a week. I miss you so much baby. ( Read more... )

Im freakin out right now. My recruiter is due to be at my house in less then 2 hours with most of my paperwork. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKK ( Read more... )

well where do i start..... me and sarah have worked stuff out so thats a plus, thats actually a lil more then a plus. i love her so much and it hurts so bad when we go through shit. but thats all better now so YaY!!! ive apparently got people head huntin for me because of all this crap between me and my friends. i could care less about that though ( Read more... )

well i went to the mudvayne show at the webster last week, and got a concussion because of it. learned lesson----dont drink and mosh,its just as dangerous as that drivin thingy.oh well, what ya gonna do. work sucks ass, and i already dontn know what to type. my sons learnin new words everyday, or so im told. im still not allowed to see him :(. i ( Read more... )