Well...right now I'm holding back tears. I've been looking forward to going to Dj's house friday night and skating and chillin with a bunch of friends that are girls. I've been waiting for it for so long, because that's the only time I would have gotten to seen people other than Dracos. Well Dj's mom got really sick, so all that's out. I feel sorry ( Read more... )

Well believe it or not, crying does help get every thing out, espicaly after having held it in for like maybe two weeks now. Xauleen called just like she said she would, but of course I was at church, my bad, forgot to remind her. Well after talking to Dracos, I felt even more better, because I explained why being alone hits me so hard. Then late ( Read more... )

I'm crying damn it, and I can't stop. The make up I put on is running into my eyes and it burns so bad. No one can do anything, no ever wants to or ever will. B/c of his stupid mother Dracos can't do anything either, so I put on the stupid shit make up for nothing. I got home and just cried, and still am crying. Dad heard me slam the door and is ( Read more... )

Well, I woke up today to my mom telling me to clean some things. So I cleaned some things. I called people to see if any one can do something with me, that was a deffinate negative on all accounts. One person I spoke to yesterday said she would call me later that night when she was done with her babysitting. She never called. So I cried, alot today ( Read more... )

Ok, I have to start off with last night, because I should have wrote in this last night. Ever one by about one am was either off, getting off, or dealing with things and didn't need me to bare them down any more. So after too many failed attempts to find a decent rp on Furcadia, I just turned the comp off and looked to my game system...Nothing ( Read more... )

Today I want to die. If I had been given the chance, and dared leave my house, I would have walked all the way to Dante's house. That's about 4 miles.Reason I didn't is b/c I wasn't sure he was there, and his parents are scaring me. His brother got disowned, and he isn't happy, so he's not on good term with his parents. I've been alone, dying at ( Read more... )

A look over at the massive AP Chem book makes her sigh. It looks much to hard, and the work seems endless. Time now for her to break...oh wait, she can't break, she's not aloud. Sweat drips from her face, clumps on her back, and runs down her legs. Tight dark pants should not been worn in the heat of summer, but that is her ( Read more... )

Timid fingers touch the bruised and swollen lip, hardly ready for the pain that insues with that very touch. Then, fingers move with the new line of scard flesh straight down her chest, this didn't hurt any more. Next, fingers run over the spot of infected flesh, an infection from a very painful flesh wound. But then, hands move over the ring on ( Read more... )

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[due to some past issues I've been having, I've begun to talk to Caly, my alter ego again. So far I've gone be the name Caly, but it is not really mine, it's her's, the one in my head. In italics is not a real person, it's Calynea, regular is me....this will be dialoge, b/c it's important that way.]

Caly...I'm afriad, and I'm very worried.
What is ( Read more... )